BLESSED 40!

Wow! I am that old?... Time sure just went out of the window so quickly. But looking back in the past 20 years of my life (let's just start after my 20th birthday). Really it was not so bad. I consider myself blessed in all aspect.

Driving back memory lane for a bit.

 I have a confession to make. When I was 20 years old I was so pressured by my peers not their fault, it was my own fault pressuring myself to find someone I want to marry. haha! Back then every time I am in a relationship with someone. In my head I want him to be the one. LOL! I know the rule you don't wanna be in a relationship if that meant you don't look forward for the future. But even if there are so many red flags. I just completely ignored them. WHY? you know, he is the one. hahaha! I guess all young women went the same experience, unless you are gifted. :)

At 24 I was Engaged! I thought for sure he was the one for me. But life takes me to different a direction. And fast forward to when I was 30. I had no expectations. I learnt to live alone and love being alone at times, that's when I met the one for me. My husband. :) YES! I met my husband exactly on my 30'th birthday. I celebrated my birthday with friends in my little apartment. and when everyone was tired and tipsy and sleepy, I on the other hand is wide awake. While the rest of the group are in deep slumber I decided to log in to a dating website. and that's how I met my husband :) 

30-40!

It just went by quickly! I guess me and James are having such a good time working together and planning for the future, that's why time just went by fast. I mostly stay at home since I am now a home maker. Typical old school marriage. He is in charge of bringing the bacon and I prepare them to make sumptuous meals. Husband work so hard for our future and I appreciate it every day. I became more conservative financially. I learned the value of hard earned money and balance our spendings. I mostly look forward for when he gets home from work so we can drink coffee together and sometimes work in our yard or just peddle in the shop. We achieved so many things together and we become such a good partner. Within 9 years of our marriage we only had a couple arguments. We don't agree each others decision at times but we manage to simplify it and see whose idea is better and why. then we make decisions together. LIFE IS GREAT!

WHAT TO LOOK FORWARD!

 I simply live on a daily basis. I enjoy every single day of my life and learn to love the good days and bad days. My Greatest learning as I grow older is that life is no permanent. It will just pass by in front of you and eventually we will go 6 feet under. all of us. no one is excluded. So why not live life in the best way possible! Maximize it!. Forgive those who hurt you. Enjoy what's in front of you. Face your problems and know it will just pass. nothing is forever anyways. Cry if you need too, that's how I let go of my negative emotions at times. AND never forget to LOVE THE ONES WHO IS THERE FOR YOU. Those one's that always see your sparkles even on a cloudy nights. In my case my HUSBAND AND MY DOGS. 

that's it. that's my 40th birthday musings... 

Love,

Honey

A scare of a LIFETIME.....

One month ago I was so terrified with my dogs life. WE though we will lose her. 

It started out on that morning when we first woke up. Our dog Lilly sleep with us in our King sized bed every night. She is my only child you know. That morning, she looks normal but a little weak, so like always as spoiled as she is husband picked her up and put her on the floor. She always follow the husband whenever he is getting ready for work, but that day she just lay on the floor. When he checked on her he noticed she cannot even stand up. Her hind legs are not working and it looked like she broke her hips. Husband calmly approached me because he knows I will panic right away. He told me come and see Lilly. (that time I was in the kitchen just making coffee as we drink coffee together every morning). Then he showed me Lilly and told me it seemed like she broke her hips. He said I'll just go to the office and ask the boss I will take a day off so we can go to the Vet

One hour later he came back. I have everything ready so We rushed her to her Doctor. The Doctor visually examined her and without even touching her yet he told us that she probably be paralyzed for the rest of her life. There is this chronic disease on dogs that attacked her spine or muscles I don't know everything was a blur for me at that moment. I was so scared and I can't hide my tears in front of those strangers (Doctor and Nurses) Lilly is our baby. Then the Doctor X-ray Lilly and find out she has a slip disc. One of her disc is kinda pushing tot he side and that is the reason why her hind legs is not working. She didn't have a broken hip Thank God, But still her life is in danger. Doctor told us he think she needs to have emergency surgery. So we rushed her to the nearest Hospital for dogs. There they do MRI and blood test as they have more complete equipment. By that time Lilly looks normal but only she cannot walk. We waited a few hours. They put her on anesthesia as they were doing MRI and finally result came. They showed us a clear picture of her spine, inside the spine and explained us everything. Also they examined her blood to rule out cancer and result came she don't have cancer. Thanks God. 

They put her under medication and she felt better after 4 days. Now she can walk slowly, run and chase vehicles again and annoys me like crazy. ha. ha! But seriously although she is still not out of danger yet, at-least I can see her slowly gaining her strength back and be a normal happy dog again.   I love her to pieces and It breaks my heart see her not able to walk that day. 

Our Colorado Trip....

 For those of you that knows me here in the blogs knew exactly how I'd like to see Colorado. Ever since 2007 the first state in the US that intrigue me the most is Co. I have seen it so many times in the movie, and I am mesmerized by it's beauty and also another reason is that something very personal.Let's not talk about it.

Finally October of 2020 the husband and I packed our bags and head north to Colorado to see the picturesque beauty of the Rockies. On the way there, I was totally shocked how different their landscape in comparison to the daily normal that I see in the south.  Some a little similar in some ways but the big picture is totally opposite. In the south we have so many trees and going north you can see nothing but an empty space filled with nothing, There's a little dry grass here and there. It was so dusty and windy that you can see tumble weeds all over the places,. Husband and I stop at one point to pick up a piece of tumble weed. ha. ha! We always see it in Matt Dillons show (Gun Smoke) so we were curious exactly what it felt to touch it with our own hands.

As we were driving, We saw a lot of windmills. That was the first time I saw such thing and I didn't realize how big they were. Husband park his truck close to one of the Windmill and we took a few photos. It was so cool to see it in person, and there were thousands of them along the hi-way. Then on our last day we plan to shot some prairie dogs in one of the town in Colorado. It is legal to shot prairie dogs in private land. Farmers allow you to let you do it in their ranch you just have to ask permission to the owner. Prairie dogs are nuisance to some of the ranchers because they make hole on the ground, and cows or horses may accidentally step on it and break their legs, that is the reason why some ranchers let you get in their property and shot as many as you can. But anyhow, that was so much fun. 

That is one of husband's and I memorable trip together. We see and experience a lot of first together. Questions if I would like to go back to Colorado and explore some more? Probably not in the near future. I would love to see Wyoming next and Idaho and Oregon. . But for sure our Colorado trip was one for the books.