Driving back memory lane for a bit.
I have a confession to make. When I was 20 years old I was so pressured by my peers not their fault, it was my own fault pressuring myself to find someone I want to marry. haha! Back then every time I am in a relationship with someone. In my head I want him to be the one. LOL! I know the rule you don't wanna be in a relationship if that meant you don't look forward for the future. But even if there are so many red flags. I just completely ignored them. WHY? you know, he is the one. hahaha! I guess all young women went the same experience, unless you are gifted. :)
At 24 I was Engaged! I thought for sure he was the one for me. But life takes me to different a direction. And fast forward to when I was 30. I had no expectations. I learnt to live alone and love being alone at times, that's when I met the one for me. My husband. :) YES! I met my husband exactly on my 30'th birthday. I celebrated my birthday with friends in my little apartment. and when everyone was tired and tipsy and sleepy, I on the other hand is wide awake. While the rest of the group are in deep slumber I decided to log in to a dating website. and that's how I met my husband :)
30-40!
It just went by quickly! I guess me and James are having such a good time working together and planning for the future, that's why time just went by fast. I mostly stay at home since I am now a home maker. Typical old school marriage. He is in charge of bringing the bacon and I prepare them to make sumptuous meals. Husband work so hard for our future and I appreciate it every day. I became more conservative financially. I learned the value of hard earned money and balance our spendings. I mostly look forward for when he gets home from work so we can drink coffee together and sometimes work in our yard or just peddle in the shop. We achieved so many things together and we become such a good partner. Within 9 years of our marriage we only had a couple arguments. We don't agree each others decision at times but we manage to simplify it and see whose idea is better and why. then we make decisions together. LIFE IS GREAT!
WHAT TO LOOK FORWARD!
I simply live on a daily basis. I enjoy every single day of my life and learn to love the good days and bad days. My Greatest learning as I grow older is that life is no permanent. It will just pass by in front of you and eventually we will go 6 feet under. all of us. no one is excluded. So why not live life in the best way possible! Maximize it!. Forgive those who hurt you. Enjoy what's in front of you. Face your problems and know it will just pass. nothing is forever anyways. Cry if you need too, that's how I let go of my negative emotions at times. AND never forget to LOVE THE ONES WHO IS THERE FOR YOU. Those one's that always see your sparkles even on a cloudy nights. In my case my HUSBAND AND MY DOGS.
that's it. that's my 40th birthday musings...
Love,
Honey
