They are Both a Mother to ME....

 Hey, I did not sleep good last night. Something has been bothering my peace in the middle of my slumber. I woke up around 2 in the morning, thinking about things that is out of my control. It all started when I stumble this TikTok account of a young lady who is a cancer patient. I was watching all her video and then at some point I realized she already pass away. I don't know I cannot stop watching her. I feel so sad and connected to her even I haven't heard about her name before. 

Why is cancer so prevalent in the United States? I know not one but Two person closest to my heart died of Cancer. One being is my mother n Law and the other one is Mum Jenene. For most of my old blogger friends, I am pretty sure you know who she was. She was my Ex's mom, and I was so close to her. In fact, she flew to Manila Philippines just to see me. She was there for me not only in my ups but also in my lowest low of my life. I remember few years back when she learns that I live in the US, we used to talk on the phone a lot. I just decided to cut our communication off out of respect to my husband. And one day a police officer shows up to the house to do a welfare check on me. HEHE! I was terrified in the beginning. they told me that mom Jenene checked on me and to call her to keep her worries away. I explained to her that I am married now, and I don't my relationship with my husband to get sour. She was very understanding about. 

When they learn she had cancer they let me know through Facebook messages. I felt so sick in my stomach when I learned she pass away. Even in my low moments when I have nobody to share my troubles, I always call her not for advice because I am very hardheaded, but just to talk too. She was always there to listen and sometimes judged me. LOL! I love that woman. Three days before she died, we talk on the phone for a few minutes. I knew then that she was weak. I can hear it in her voice, I was so sad of her passing 3 days later. I just wish I visited her in her last few days. thinking about it makes me so sad. 

I know both of them are in no pain now. and with Jesus in Heaven. I wish there are new medicine that kills cancer cells easy. Hoping and Praying so hard that it will happen one day. 

Fishing Story

 I woke up 10 A.M this morning. you may ask why so late? Our normal bedtime is 2 A.M so obviously I have to stay in bed longer than usual. I used to be a morning person, which I still am. I like waking up when everyone is sleeping. I enjoyed my alone time in the morning. Just me and a cup of coffee. 

This morning, I started reading this book husband's daughter lend me. The book is called "All Good People Here. very interesting. I will update the verdict of the story once I finish the book. I have been in my reading rote lately.

While James is watching his show on YouTube , I am in the bed reading my stuff. That is why I sleep real late too. It really is so nice that James is already retired. I have a company of a human being 24/7. I don't mind it at all. I am so excited for spring. I look forward to go fishing. I could fish all day. ha. ha. I enjoyed catching it but not cleaning. I tell you a funny story.

When we went to the Philippines 2016, James and my brothers went fishing. He catch a bunch of small fish like itty bitty shiners (bolinao) HE throw it back in the water. My brothers were wondering why he throw it back there. So my brother caught one he showed it to my husband and told him they will keep that size. he was laughing he thought it was a joke. LOL! He didn't know that we keep small fishy in the PI to eat for dinner. They had a good time fishing. 

When they came home, my sister got the fish and clean it . He was amazed and told them, in the US. when I go fishing, I also clean my fish.but here the women clean the fish which makes sense if you both eat it for supper together. He told me then and there that he knows now who cleans the fish. LOL! Since then, Both of us clean the fish. I still don't clean the fish alone. I'm not going to lie, I do sometimes. I hate to just waste it you know. After spending all day in the lake it don't make any bit of sense to just ruin the fish, so I clean it. But not happy when I do it alone

That's all for now. Since it's Sunday we probably go visit the family. I may be rude but because we spent all day there, sometimes I just go take a nap in the couch. They can talk all day long and I am just not made for that, so the couch is my rescue. what can I do? 

Bye for now ... This post don't makes sense in the moment, but I like reading it in the future. 

See yah later.

Love,

Honey

Happy Valentines Day!

 How's your valentines everyone? James and I don't really put so much effort on valentine. We have the usual card and flowers and chocolates but other than that we just go on with our lives. I know one of y'all make it a big celebration, that's fine too. I am Happy for you. I guess we are married long enough that valentines is just another normal day for us. We eat out a lot of times a week so eating on special occasions are no big deal anymore. Am I insane for not making it a big deal? well, James is and has always been thoughtful and never fails to buy me those valentines essentials. LOL

Anyhow, I have such a great day today, . Every day is valentines in our house. And I am Thankful for that.

That's all for now. Hope y'all have a happy Valentines! I love you....

Always,

Honey

I am just Rambling

I don't know what got into me. All of a sudden, I feel like blogging again. I wish it's a lot easier to post photos here, but it really is not. I am not using a digital camera anymore, who does? If one of  y'all still does, well congrats. :) You still have a better-quality photo. 

In all honesty, I started out bringing my camera with me this year. It was nice while it lasted. So bulky though. that is why It did not last long. 

have you heard about a TikTok being banned? that one did not last too. I was in Tiktok rabbit hole . I hear myself laughing so hard right now. I was so addicted on that app and not gonna lie it consumed most of my nights. I went to bed like very late at night. I think I burn my eyeballs and my credit card. I had order so many product, most of them are useless to say the least. Glad I got over it now. lol 

In the beginning of my husband being retired, we had to adjust a little. I stay at home all the time and love spending alone. But since I cannot do that anymore, I was a little grouchy Bitch sometimes. I think I need a little bump on my forehead. Don't get me wrong. We enjoyed most days, like 99% of the time. But the 1%? Don't even get me started about it. hahaha.. It's fine now. We adjusted so well . but I said on last post I am so grumpy. It is true and that was after our Philippines visit. I miss the life in the Philippines I guess. 

Anyhow. this week has been very cold in this side of the planet. last week the weather felt like spring , this week is the opposite. You have to wear jacket, if ever you wanna go outside. or else you will freeze yourself to death. We are in Louisiana you know and not use to this cold weather. But I enjoy it. not complaining. In fact, loving it. 

alright. that is all I can think of for now. . . I may come back here tomorrow night. Time stamp right now is 10:22 PM.

see y'all later. I enjoyed having you here. listening to my rambling.

Love,

Honey

Oh Hey!!!!

 Hi y'all. It has been soo long. What's new? hahha....

It's 2025 already. So many things happened in my life. James retired from his job last year. and also last year we visited the Philippines. We spend 2 months, and it was one of the best vacations we had. But I cannot just go on with my post if I will not acknowledge the passing of my dog. 

April 06,2023 my dog Lilly passed away. I had so many good memories with my little Doberman. Husband gifted me a dog on my first Christmas here in the US. and it was my Lilly. She literally saved my life. I remember I just got here in the USA that time, when somebody was trying to break into our home. I was terrified to say the least. My dog Lilly was so aggressive that the burglar decided to just go away. Of course, I called my husband, and he came to my rescue.  We called 911 and they caught the guy. I am so glad I have a dog. fast forward to the day of her passing. It was the saddest day in our household. Husband and I took her to the Vet and there, they put her to sleep. :( we cried so hard because she is not just a dog to us. She was our baby. We lost a part of us on that day. But like anything else. Life has to go on. I will carry her in my heart and /memories for as long as I live. 

Today we have a new Doberman in the house. She will be 4 years old in June 2025. We got her when she was just 3 months old. She is not Lilly for sure. Her name is Mellie, but we call her "Pop". she is different but she has her own personality. We love her and she is perfect addition to our family.

I told you we spent 2 months in the Philippines. right? We actually build a tiny house there. We bought a piece of property last 2023 and when we visit last year, we build a fence and a small house. This year we will fly again in September. Also, we brought Pop there. she did not like it a lot, but she learns to tolerate it. hehehe! 

For some reason I feel like I am grumpier. I don't have any answer for now, but it seemed like I flip so easily. a little something throws me off so quickly. I don't want to feel this way. I feel so sorry for my husband because I am such a bitch. I can't help it though, so I know there is a problem somewhere.

Anyways, I hope I'll get to upload this site as much as I can. I will try ...

so Bye for now. See yah again later. It might be next month or next year. who knows :)

Love,

Honey