Rant

I don't know if it's a good morning for me. The neighbor is very noisy at 4:00 A.M. They are so inconsiderate. Damn!

Mix lang...

Everyone has it's own short comings..

I don't want to complaint. As much as possible all I want is to appreciate what life has been giving me. Food clothing and shelter. I can say I am well taken care of. Although I struggle in the matters of the heart.

Once upon a time my heart had been broken. I was in the lowest low. but is able to survive.. God has been the center of my universe. I cried rivers of tears that time. When I feel like the world is turning down, I just grab my rosary and pray(cry as much as I could) or go to shower and cry till the last drop of my tears.

Now I am more inspired to live though. I have been dreaming about it for the longest time. I forgot how to take care of myself(heart matters). But since I met my friends the world becomes different. They help me realize that it's not the end of the world yet. They opened up my eyes and help me widen my horizon. Now I have seen the things that I overlooked before. I thought my world is over. But perhaps God gave me another purpose, another reason to keep living.

I met my friends when I studied college. They've been very nice lending their shoulders to listen the silliest part of me. They see me cry. Laugh. Frown. Mad. and yet still they are there for me. Sometimes I can say, this world is crazy. way more crazy than the living creatures.

When I am in love. I give everything. I make sure that he will feel that he is my world. But after that failed relationship, it seemed like I just NEED to live neutral. Expect the unexpected. that's what I am doing as of the moment.

This has been the story that I've talking many times already. .

call it cheesy, boring or however you name it.. I'm just here expressing my thoughts and opinion.

Another thing. I am busy lately studying of how to become a good hotelier. I hope I will be able to use this knowledge in the future. . .

The training center will help us find jobs outside the country. I am not deciding yet of where to go. It will be my own ship that will take me there.. I hope this boat will not sink like the dreams and plans in the past. Well, for now I don't believe in dreams. It's just an illusion for me. But for the plans. I have many of that. It only depends, with God. wherever he wants me to-be. I'd be gladly willing to go with HIM.

Ramblings...

The weather this week changes from time to time. Sometimes the sun is up and sometimes it's hiding from nowhere.

It's like the emotions that I am feeling in the last few days. Honestly I am so looking forward to finish my training. All I need is a job to be able to escape this boredom at home. I don't want to live a life full of sadness. I need an outlet.

I dream of being successful, and I don't just write it down on a piece of paper. I want to work for it. Yeah! This training in Makati is the first step I am taking. Next month I am so done with books, pens and papers.

I will be applying work soon which is the 2nd step on my list. When I get a job. I want to save every penny of my salary. As much as possible I want to purchase only the things I need. Neglect the things I want. I will just buy them in the future when I have enough.

This is the new me. I think I am decision wise now in terms of budgeting. But with emotions I am very weak. I can cry all day when I feel the pain inside my heart. Oh! poor honey. feeling so alone right now..

People around me think I am a Happy woman. They just don't know I've been to a lot of struggles in life..

Oh well... Life is so confusing...


Emotion is like a weather Report.. Sometimes the sun is shining, and sometimes it is hiding while the rain is pouring..

Hotel Training..

Today we have 3 days seminar at the hotel. Our check in time is 2 in the afternoon meaning I still have time to browse around the internet. I am debating if I will bring my laptop or not.. will see what happen..

Right now, I am feeling a little stress. Just some daily thoughts in my head. Life isn't always easy.. While driving in the journey, sometimes it's bumpy. But I'm pretty sure along the way their is goodness waiting.

No quiting.. Life is always Life though...

Tired Day..

Right now as I'm writing this post my brain and eyes wants to shutdown already. It's my first day assigned in the Hotel room. As for me, the job is not that hard. Only the traffic on the way home that makes me feel exhausted..

My brain is really hurting right now. Maybe it's also the time of the month for me. that's why..

No significant thing happened today. I just wanted to rant and rave.. ehheheh!