New beginning- New ME!

I wanted to spread out positive vibes around this blog. I think the crying is over. Now I am ready to face a new battle in life. I fear less and I am now a braver person. Letting go of my emotional baggage really helped a lot in coping with stress,depression and heartbreak in the past.

To begin with, I wanted to talk about how beautiful my love story was. I thought it was the perfect relationship I had all my life. I always go out with a happy heart, even thought my partner is not beside me. Even though he lives a thousand miles away from me. It was OK because I completely trust him. But just like every love story, there comes a point in a relationship where time will test how strong the foundation you both created. My partner gave up. He weren't strong enough to stand still. His very weak and our love story collapsed. It was sad. The beautiful love story has to come to an end. Although the moving on was hard. the daily encounter was a struggle. But as of this writing I am proud to say that ME, MYSELF and I is completely OK [insert smile :) here].

Right now, my focus is to be an inspiration to everyone out there who is undergoing emotional breakdown. I was once there. I was one of those many woman that cried before and after bed time. Awakening in the wee hours is no fun at all. Feeling so lonely and scared of being alone for the rest of my life is never easy. But see? I am able to survive.Where I am right now is because of my positive outlook on life.

So to those of you who has a broken heart my advice is to just take it easy. Cry if you need to, Cry as much as you want. talk to your friends, no matter how many times you brought out the topic it's OK. they have no choice but to listen anyway. talk to yourself. go out wherever your feet leads you, Lock yourself in your room, starve if you like, eat even though your tummy is full, sleep, write a note, sing, dance and be crazy. But most of all at the end of the day PRAY. I was able to let go all of those heartaches and let God in towards my life. Trust me, HE heal my wounded heart completely.

Having a broken heart is just a part of being human. There's nothing we can do while were still alive, but to continue living. No matter how tough the time is I've learned that everything in life is temporary. So let's enjoy every moment while were alive. Because all this earthly experiences will just come to an end and for sure there will be no more tears in HEAVEN.. :-)

going back here for good...

I am planning of really going back to blogging world for good. As you have noticed most of the time I am invisible. I honestly check my site everyday but don't have the guts to post anything that's new..

I consider myself dead for the last few months. Now I am back. Alive and kicking with a new hope that life will be good to me this time around. I wanted to be back monetize my blog like I used too. Sleepless nights waiting for opps (old PPP style).. hehehe! I think it's no longer like that. They have a new way of giving opps. right? I will find out later...

I also consider myself buying a new domain quite an idea as for now. I know there's a lot of things to be done and to consider before this blog will earn income again. Slowly I am rebuilding it.

This is the new me.. Born again. and will be rocking the blogging world soon.. nyayykzz!

How powerful LOVE is???

This post is inspired when I was wastching a T.V program about a "gay and a lesbian" who got married in church.I find it very entertaining since it's one of a very rare situation where both gay's(literally men-woman) fell in love with each other.See how powerful love is?

Everyone in this world deserves to be loved. Wether your man,woman,gay or a lesbian. Even dog's in the street needs someone's affection. Love is something that makes you feel accepted no matter how worst the situation is. No matter how tough the time is for you LOVE is always there comforting you and telling you that everything will be alright. TRUE love never quits.

I am a woman that strongly believes that there is a right person for each of us. Along the way we may stumble and fall into pieces, got hurt and perhaps may have scars due to that certain heart break. But isn't it true that falling in love is a wonderful thing?

I have my own fair share of stories about that. But it doesn't mean I will end my world just because someone broke my heart. I won't stop loving..

I know I deserve the BEST. and Someone deserves the BEST in me too..

Here's a famous bible quote that I include...

1 Corinthians 13

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror;then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

OJT.. Experiences and more...

In two days from now I am finally done with my On the Job Training. I couldn't believe how time flies very fast. It was early last month when I rant and rave about the pending task at school. Well, honestly I am more than proud of myself for achieving the job with a flying colors.Am I bragging here??? sort of.. hehehhe!

If you know me personally you can see how my life is in a real limbo this past few months. I cried rivers of tears every day and night before I sleep. But I keep my faith to God that one day I will be fine. I remember not eating for few days hoping not to wake up no more. That was crazy.hehehhe..

Graduation has passed and On Job Training is almost over. Soon, I will be facing a real life of my own. Dreaming new dreams and Conquering life without fears. I know I can-do it. I am a strong woman...

This is what I have learnt in life. Standing up when you fall. No matter how deep it is, as long as your still alive and kicking then you still have a chance to be happy. One day in God's perfect time He will give you a total package of happiness. The secret is just being PATIENCE....

Hotel Training..

Today we have 3 days seminar at the hotel. Our check in time is 2 in the afternoon meaning I still have time to browse around the internet. I am debating if I will bring my laptop or not.. will see what happen..

Right now, I am feeling a little stress. Just some daily thoughts in my head. Life isn't always easy.. While driving in the journey, sometimes it's bumpy. But I'm pretty sure along the way their is goodness waiting.

No quiting.. Life is always Life though...

Good morning Sunshine

Good morning folks...

It's another day for me. Today my plan is to attend the graduation practice at school and then hopefully find a dress to wear for the ceremony this Friday. I have been searching for dress since last week, but I failed to find the one that fits me good. It's not that I'm very picky, It's just that I am maybe too big to wear a dress. hahahha!

I am living my day into a daily basis. My close friends are always around me here. They live just 2 minutes walk away from my house. Oh! BTW, I transfered a new apartment. I like it here better than the old one. Although I missed the people at the old house much. They are so good to me since from the beginning.

I have my inspiration of course with my new life. My family who is always there with me through the good and bad days. And the people that loves me for who and what I am.

Time heal all wounds...

Once in our life, we will experience pain. It's a part of being human I believe.

Pain is a suffering not just by our physical body but also the emotion with in our soul. When were in that certain situation, we felt like being abandoned by the world. Sometimes we tend to blame the Lord why this agony happened. We did not realize that he is carrying us like song "foot prints in the sand".

I for one experienced a shattered heart few months back.

At that certainty all I see is a dark light. No matter how and what my friends advices me, I weren't able to appreciate it literally. What is clear in my mind is that I am hurt and wanted to end the agony through death. I did not eat for 3 days in a row. I just lay in bed and cried all day and night long. I was so depress and can't think of anything good at all.

But, as time passes by I felt like the burden inside my heart is melting. It's like the sun's appearance during the winter time as it melted the snow. As the sun goes up the pain is slowing down. It is healing by it's own. Now, I realize that when a relationship ends you don't have to dwell with that failed relationship all your life. The world is quiet big and wither we like it or not, we also have to consider looking at the other side of the world. When one side is dark, it doesn't mean that the whole world is covered with darkness. It's a fact, that the world has 2 faces. One is filled with black colors during the night and the other one is bright as it faces the day.

I am Thankful that God is with me along with my journey. He carried me when I was so down and can't stand up for a walk. He leads me and direct me to the right path in life. A BEAUTIFUL path that sure will bring goodness and happiness for a life time.