This post is based on how I feel today. With all honesty since yesterday I never feel good. Headache strikes again and emotions went up and down. I am tired and emotionally down. I need an outlet. I reckon why I feel this way is because I have no one to talk. I felt crazy here inside the four corners of my room. I feel sad. I don't understand.

I am so contented with my life right now, but I can't help to be sad sometimes. I think because  I'm only human you know. I feel so alone today. James is spending time with the family Saturday and Sunday so I am left home with just me, myself, and sassy.  He needs it as he did not see them in a while since he was sick. The  kids missed him so much. Yes I am very proud how good of a person he is and how he loves the family. when he had a cold all I did is just wish I am there to take care of him. I feel so useless at times when I can't be there when I know he needs me the most. *sight!*

Another thing every once in a while my headache strikes again. I thought we have disbanded our closeness already but I think it  loves me a little. I just wish it will not exist no more and will totally hate me like I hated every during it's visit. I am glad my thoughtful fiance brings me a bottle(250 pcs.) of pain reliever. It does help BIG TIME.

 I just wish you'all a happy start of the week. once this headache will be over, I'm sure mine will be better too. Here's a photo of me and sassy. Happy Monday everyone!

This too shall pass...

Speaking from the heart. I honestly wanted to rest for one more week. I don't feel like going out and finding a job just yet. Those days at the hotel drown all of my energy, that is why right now I want to be lazy even just for few more days.

BUT...

I have a need to find a job as soon as possible. My budget is not in good shape now. I felt sad thinking about this. This year I've reach the lowest point in my life. I never imagine myself going through this boat. never at all..

BUT then again...

This boat of unhappiness makes me a better person. It helps me realize that life is not a bed of roses. It could be a bed of roses, but with thorns in it. OUCH! hehehhe.... As for me everything happens for a certain reason. So many uncertainty. right? My life and emotions is in limbo(literally) one minute I am OK and next minute I felt alone and neglected.

BUT....

it's OK.... nO MATTER how many bucket of tears I cried everyday, LIFE for me goes on... because I'm sure

THIS TOO SHALL PASS

Emotions

Has a lot of Twist and Turns...

Above all...

Thank you Lord for being a wonderful God always!