I love you my little best-friend :-(

My heart is breaking today as I lost my precious little best-friend. She's been with me for nearly two months but she has my heart forever. I keep asking myself if I really did take good care of her the right way. I missed her so bad and I can't stop my tears. She's been with me 24/7 since I got her. My life changed and she becomes a part of my world. I can't even enjoy at the mall when she's alone at home.

Now that I lost her it seemed like I lost a part of me.My little best friend is also a puppy for everybody. Every time she see neighbors, she always waggled her tails and kissed their feet. all the neighbors loved her because of her being sweet and playfully attitude.

I love you so much my baby girl. I know your with God and with my mama. You'll always have a very special place in my heart. I try not to-be sad today. but I am hurting and I can't avoid it. :(. Rest in Peace my sweet earthling. I missed you bad already :(

Sassy is sick :(

My girl was sick last night. I sleep 1 a.m and woke up around 2 in the morning because she was feeling so weak. As her best friend I stayed up with her. I take good care of her as much I know of. I even cried because I can't stand looking at my poor sick sassy. I can't let her go coz she is one of my happiness these days. James on the other hand is my comforter. He calls every now and then when his not busy at work. He was worried about me and my little best friend. We feel so loved. :)

We anticipated the morning to come so I can take her to the vet. Around 6 in the morning when she looks a lot more better. but every time she take liquid she will throw up again. I cried again in the morning. I'm such a crying baby.LOL! I did not wait much longer. I decided to leave the house early to get to the clinic, that way Sassy will be check as soon as possible. True enough coz We were the first patient.

The doctor see blood on her poppy and when he tells me the situation  I was sad. They want her to be confine to avoid dehydration at home. I have no choice but to say yes. I know I will miss her presence at home, but I'd rather miss her than to keep her in trouble. I want her to live as long as God will provide. and I am thankful James completely support me with everything I desire.

I took a short video of her while the doctor put her dextrose. My poor baby girl is in pain today :( . I love you sassy. I pray that you'll get better tomorrow. Amen

This post is based on how I feel today. With all honesty since yesterday I never feel good. Headache strikes again and emotions went up and down. I am tired and emotionally down. I need an outlet. I reckon why I feel this way is because I have no one to talk. I felt crazy here inside the four corners of my room. I feel sad. I don't understand.

I am so contented with my life right now, but I can't help to be sad sometimes. I think because  I'm only human you know. I feel so alone today. James is spending time with the family Saturday and Sunday so I am left home with just me, myself, and sassy.  He needs it as he did not see them in a while since he was sick. The  kids missed him so much. Yes I am very proud how good of a person he is and how he loves the family. when he had a cold all I did is just wish I am there to take care of him. I feel so useless at times when I can't be there when I know he needs me the most. *sight!*

Another thing every once in a while my headache strikes again. I thought we have disbanded our closeness already but I think it  loves me a little. I just wish it will not exist no more and will totally hate me like I hated every during it's visit. I am glad my thoughtful fiance brings me a bottle(250 pcs.) of pain reliever. It does help BIG TIME.

 I just wish you'all a happy start of the week. once this headache will be over, I'm sure mine will be better too. Here's a photo of me and sassy. Happy Monday everyone!

Takaw Sassy

Sassy loves bones just like the other dogs. At first I am so hesitant to give her such because I'm scared she might hurt her teeth or will be splinter. But then I think she is now a grown up little pups and is ready for hard food. Here is a short video of her that I uploaded in youtube. I'm sorry for my annoying voice. LOL!

Me: give me some baby girl
Sassy: brrrr..brrrr. 

   ahhhh. she's just a cute little thing.

My sleepy head Sash...

I am so amazed how iPhone can download video in YouTube with just a few sec. I do look forward of making a short video of anything and everything under the sun. This made me think of making this page a video blog.  will see. :)

And yes: Here's my sassy/sashy,sasha/ girl. I'm just a proud momma. LOL!

My Valentines.My sassy

Valentines Day is yet again another ordinary day for me. With all honesty I have never been with anyone physically on this day of love. That is how I learnt the art of dead-ma during hearts day. Another confession from me "I don't appreciate flowers, chocolates and teddy bears during this day". I felt like those things are more appreciated when your with your beloved. But I am alone, and I have nobody to share it with since my fiance is a million miles away from me. But James knows already with how I feel about  flowers and chocolates on valentines that is why he is very understanding when I told him I don't want to receive those stuff because it will  just a waste of money if he will buy one. But my thoughtful fiance still give me something very special. He buy me a puppy and yes! She is indeed the BEST valentines gift I've ever had.

Introducing my sweet earthling

Thank you so much babe for giving me such a sweet earthling. She always wakes me up in wee hours and kept me occupied, but nevertheless she is a wonderful gift. And most Importantly Thank you so much babe for the gift of True Love. I Love you a bunchesssssyyyy  ♥ ♥ ♥  :)

Side note: The neighbor adopted my other puppy (cheeky). I asked them to watch her during my fiance's visit, and since then she don't want to go home no more. :( LOL! . James saw me very sad, so he end up buying a new puppy as his valentines gift. :) . Sassy is a Shih tzu Pomeranian breed.. Thanks the babe. I love you!