Thankful heart

I always read my blog-post whenever I feel sad and alone. The struggles that I've been through all those years has molded me to be a better and strong person that I am now. To live far away from your family and childhood friends is somewhat hard at times. Sometimes, I feel like speaking my language or just riding a jeep to go to the market, but I can't do it here. Kinda frustrating :( .

I live here in the U.S for over 3 years now, and I still don't know how to drive. My husband is teaching me patiently but I am the one who don't have enough effort to learn how to do it. Anyhow, back to reading my old post, It's amazing how I made it through during the lowest point of my life. I salute myself every time I remember how a pull it off.

I don't hate no one. In fact I already forgiven the person behind my struggles. God has blessed me so much in the form of my husband and I can't Thank him enough for that. I am beyond grateful with our almighty father everyday.

Every after reading my old post here, makes me realize my life now is what I always dreamed of and I don't have any room for sadness or feeling alone no more. My heart is full of great-fullness. Thank you Lord for my answered prayer.

So it's time to say ciao for now. ... I am beyond ecstatic I have this blog for many years.
 

Fishing..

Hey guys I'm back again! It has been a little while and I kinda miss it here. LOL! anyways The husband and I together with our little grandson went on a fishing trip this time. We promised the boy to go fishing so even the wind is blowing 35MPH it did not stop us from going.

It was a fun experience for the three of us, because the husband can maneuver the boat real good. He can make it as fast as you want it to-be or maybe as slow as it gets. The wind drove us crazy and we didn't get any fish at all. So we decided to call it a day. We let him fish at the pier for an hour or so before we decided to go home. The little boy was grateful and told us he had fun. It sure made a smile at papaw's and honey's face. :)

View from our boat. water looks real rough, but the view is beautiful.

Strike a pose before we hit the road.

The Bird in our Yard...

I get up early everyday when the husband is working. I make sure he has everything he needs before he gets out of bed. I also take care of Lilly (my spoiled doberman) in the morning. She needs to go outside to-do her thing. While standing I see this beautiful Red Bird on the Bird Feeder. Out of curiosity I walked towards the birdy's direction. Surprisingly, the little bird just look at me and didn't even bother to fly.

 So I run inside the house and grab my camera. This was my first shot of her.

she just stand still.

 

Took another shot closer and she just stay there.I'm happy I got a close-up
shot of this little beauty.

ain't she pretty?

Then I begin to wonder, if there's something wrong with her. It's so unusual for this sweet bird to stay where she at for a while.But a couple of seconds later, she fly away. I was relieved knowing that she is OK.

Daily...

Valentines is just a few days away. can you believe how time gone by so fast? I guess the older you get, the faster time will fly. Husband and I has no exact plan on valentines. That's his on-call week so prolly will just stay home and work on our yard. The progress we made in our place in the neck of the woods is amazing. You can tell we put on a lot of sweat in it and  It's so fulfilling to look how beautiful and clean our surroundings is now.

Sunny Day!

Beautiful weather. Indeed! Yep! After almost 3 weeks of rain and nasty weather, finally the Sun, shine again in this side of the world. It's been a week of pretty weather including the weekend. That means hooray! to some outdoor activities.

Yep! hubby and I plan to go fishing this Sunday in their company's private lake. It has been almost a year since we went fishing in that beautiful location. The last time we visited the place was when we went camping with my friend from Arkansas. It was indeed a fun experience. This coming Sunday we will be with my hubby's office-mate and his girlfriend. I met them twice already so I think I will no longer shy during our conversation. I know! I'm a shy freak! and it's a bummer.

Today my plan was to go out and clean a little in our yard. pulling weeds ( not-really), but this morning I saw an alligator drag mark in the lake, so that means staying in-door for honey while hubby is at work. In my opinion our place is somewhat scary because of alligator, but with no bias I think our property is very beautiful. Those that don't understand about plants and animals life very much are mostly the one's who is so scared to live in this area. But to me. I love our place. The alligators never bother me nor my husband since when he live here, that is why I am not scared at all.

Of course! being not scared and being cautious are two different word. Thought I'm not scared, I'm still cautious. Safety first! agree?

But anyways, I'm just excited for our weekend. Saturday we will do some cleaning in the yard then dinner with the inlaws. Then Sunday morning we will go fishing with hubby's friend.

Soooo.. Hep! Hep! Hooray to this beautiful week!

Chilly Weather

The temperature outside is constantly dropping. I'm sure it will be getting cooler in the coming days. I can't stand the cold weather, but I like the color of the surroundings though. In fact, this is my favorite time of the year as mentioned in my older post.

My dog Lilly is enjoying this chilly temperature during the day. She begs like human just to stay outside and play. But I don't let her stay out longer because of the alligator that wanders around the yard. Although I have only seen him once, but who knows he might just be lurking outside waiting for his prey to arrive.

HOT. H.O.T!!!!!!

I don't know what happened in this side of the world where I live. It's excruciating hot lately. I'd rather want to bundle up myself than experiencing this kind of heat. I know rainy days is coming. I don't want too much rain either. I just want a cooler temperature. a more comfortable one. I think this weather is OK if only I have A/C at home. The fiance wants me to buy one, but the hard headed and stingy me that is stopped him. I just don't want him to spent too much money about stuff at home. I know I can handle this.

Right now, the fan and cooler is working 24 hours a day. Well, sometimes I do turn it off for less than an hour so they can rest. LOL. Seriously, this temperature don't make me feel good. I wish this will be over with or at-least just cool down a little. Oh! I will definitely be a happy camper :)

Anything goes...

It's raining cats and dogs outside and I find it beautiful. It feels good to stay at home and snuggle up with my snuggle buddy my sassy girl. I have been home all the time since I got sash with me. My friends are coming here to check me out. They keep asking me why I no longer visit them no more. I just smile and tell them I am enjoying alone time with my girl. They said I look pale and need sunshine. They just missed me I guess. LOL!

Also I wanted to let you know that I'm learning how to utilize my kitchen (as if like my kitchen is as big as Dedon kitchen in Siargao. LOL!) Seriously I am learning how to cook. I print screen recipes from Mr. google and followed it. so far it works good in me. I cooked some deli-sh dish and makes me proud of myself. Constant practice will surely leads me to close to perfection. 

I want to use all of what I learned someday soon in God's perfect time. God's timing is always perfect. 

Shot on the spot

I just find this cute. . .


While browsing my other blog, I saw this shot on the spot post. I made this entry back in December 24,2008. And since I find the tag cute. I decided to take a picture of myself using my webcam and put it next to the post. This time the tittle of this entry is the before and the after post or the skinny and the Fat Me.. LOL!!

Back in 2008 I look so fragile skinny girl. now look at me in 2012. OMG! I gain a lot of weight but is a lot more prettier. ha. ha. ha!

Anyway I will end this post with a sweet goodnight to you all my dearies. My eyes are getting tired and my bed is calling. xoxo'. Until my next no sense post. :D

Day#24 to happiness

I get-so busy lately. There's a lot of things that need to accomplish.

I am just so excited that at least I'll be able to breath another fresh air. what does this means? It means another time away from the crowd City here in Manila. Yes! You heard me right. I'll be spending a long vacation one more time.

We already booked ticket of the place that we want to visit. I'm sure it will be a lot of fun. Few more days and the BIG day is here. Also it will be another time to bond with the family. I do missed the little people in Cebu.

No text message. Thank You!

It's been a month now and I'm not receiving a text message. I am so thankful because this is what I know of about the waiting process, the longer the better. I am not really bored waiting. I am enjoying every single day with my family.

To be honest. I don't want to receive any text message on my number until Aug. 15,2012. It's just scared me to death whenever my phone rings. OMG! Everyday is an intense feeling. The waiting is no more an agony because of something that keeps me busy.

I love how inspire yours truly is. The happiness I'm feeling right now is priceless. thanks God!

Just Daily..

It's raining cats and dog since Monday and I am not loving it. I just don't like the nasty weather outside. geez. I have so many things to-do before I leave for Cebu. I need to buy a little something for my nephews and niece. I want to see some cute smiley faces from those little fellas when I arrive home.

As of this writing. I am excited thinking about what's new in my hometown. I might be seeing new faces, or some kids that are now grown up and becoming a mother. I get the idea from FB while browsing. OMG! I feel like a grumpy old lady. nahhhh.. I don't care.. I am used to people teasing me that anyway.. LOL!

My plans during my stay with the family includes visiting my moms grave. I really missed her. I wish I have the power to turn back the hands of time. I love my mom so dearly. and I hope she's proud of what I am right now. A strong grown up lovely lady.. hahahha! Love you mom.

Letting GO..

A strong woman knows how to keep her life in line. With tears in her eyes, she still manages to say, “Nah, I’m fine.- Anonymous.

Honey say's:

When I decide, I'll make sure that there will never be regret at the end of it. I always put it this way " everything happens for a reason, sometimes that reason is unclear yet, but eventually you will be able to figure it out". The fact is if you force things to happen, your like killing yourself softly. Some things are not meant to-be, and that's what we people should understand. Don't be stuck on a denial stage. If you know for a fact that it will not work, then why stay in sorrow? The world is so BIG and you can do- so many things in a day. Don't be fooled by your heart. Trust me, I've experienced the worsiest feeling of getting my heart hurt. I don't wanna go back on those days. That was a nightmare.

For me LOVE matters and LOVE should be reciprocated. . If you love someone, tell them and let them feel it, Show them you care and your there for them through the test of time.life is not always a piece of cake. right? BUT if you feel that your just the only person that feels so inlove with your partner. Hey! girl wake up. Grab your things and go.. You are precious and you deserve to be loved by someone as well. If you prefer to stay that will be your choice, but be ready with the agony.. :)

Happiness..

I thought happiness is so hard to achieve. When I had my first major break up I thought my world is over. I though that I cannot find happiness no more in my life. to be honest for quite sometimes, my life is trapped with loneliness and fear. I fear to face the world and because of that I was so lonely. Lonely not in the sense that your longing to be with someone so badly, but lonely because I feel like I am abandoned by the world of happiness. I thought there is no room in this beautiful world for me. That was what I thought. And I was completely wrong...

Now, I see myself again. A carefree individual who is given a second chance. I'll make sure that this time around I will protect my heart. No one will take care of it except me alone. I know that I might be making a no good decisions or will be experiencing bumpy rides again in the future, I sure not to worry about it no more. I am living my life today. I am not living for the future or with my past. I take it easy. live it easy. .

There will be so many things that will happen in the future I am certain to that. Good or bad, I will be embracing it, and sure will surpass all of it... Life is tough, but when the going gets tough, Surely that Tough gets going.. :)

Just daily

I am quite busy this past days. Been running here and there for some important matter. Good thing I am almost done with it. Next stop is to Concentrate on finding job again. Why again? It's because I did that already and yes, I passed all the process but I decided not to pursue with it.

It's a hard decision to make. Yes! I need that job so bad, but I also need to finish with my P. I don't regret with my decision though. I am more than glad that I complete everything I need(not everything, as I need one more thing from my school) Good Lord, I pray that I will get my S.O soon. That's the only piece that I need.

Anyway, just a little proud of myself lately. I can stroll around anywhere without taking a taxi. Before It makes me so scared to just ride a jeepney. I am more comfy with riding a taxi. But now I am really a different person. I turn 180 degrees away from my life before. hmmmm.. I think what I've been through boost out my confidence.

Oh! before I end this post. I just wanted to share how happy I am. did 2 things today.

Mode of the Day...

Right now, I feel so bored at home. Is it because of the weather? I don't know... There is no electricity at home. No water too.. duhhhh!

I don't want to complain but honestly I feel like it sucks today. No email. nothing.... haist! :(