Pure teardrops, PURE LOVE

Tonight's episode will be very interesting. Diane Shin got her first tear. It is when she cried in the middle of the road because she still wants to continue living. She don't want to die yet. True enough that "Life is Beautiful" .. It also makes me realize of loving myself first because how can you love or how can other people love you when you don't even know how to love yourself?.

Well guyz, if you don't know what I am talking about, I will tell you a little story about it...

I am so addicted with this Korean TV series.

It's a story about a girl(Dianne Shin) who is treated like a princess to her friends and family. She's a rich girl and everybody loves her. She's getting married in a few days before she got an accident and in Comatose. This time the scheduler appears. He is heaven sent. He gave Dianne Shen 49 days to collect pure tear-drops.

According to the scheduler, there are many kinds of tears. And Dianne's task is to collect tears of 3 people that truly love her (her parents is not included). In order for her to-do it Dianne uses Ysabelle Songs body. Ysabelle lost her boyfriends 5 years ago and suffer depression since then. She wanted to commit suicide.

Another character is Dave Han. His one of Dianne's friend and I think he loves Dianne secretly, but sad that Dave's bestfriend is Dianne's fiancee(Raymond Kang). Raymond have a secret affair with Dianne's bestfriend kayla shin. . .

Anyways the story is very addicting. I don't even skip watching it at night.. I so damn love it.. hehehhe!

Just Daily

It's been raining non-stop since Thursday. I hope the rain will completely gone before I run out of clean clothes. I have a pile of laundry and I hate it.

Wednesday I will start working again. Iam looking forward to finish my medical exam so that I can forward my documents to the agency. I hope and pray that this training will give a good fruit in the future. I am claiming it with faith.

So Help me God... :)

Old photo..

Some old photo...

Rant

I don't know if it's a good morning for me. The neighbor is very noisy at 4:00 A.M. They are so inconsiderate. Damn!

Soon..

Wednesday Aug. 24 and Friday Aug. 26.... Yay! Excited lang.. hahahah!

I want a vacation...

Someday when the time is right, I want to treat myself a grande vacation. It could be just me, myself and I or the company of friends it doesn't matter. I know I deserve this. My own self had been suffering so much and I am thankful that I am not a quitter. The hurricane that passed by in my life made me a better and stronger individual as I am right now. If in case someday I'll be facing a new challenge again I am sure I will be able to surpass it all. As a human who is alive and kicking, I believe problem is just a part of our daily endeavor. It will mold and help us to create a more firm decision in different aspect of life.

My goal of working and saving hasn't changed yet. Love can wait I am sure of that. But even though I am not meant for someone, I will still consider myself lucky because of the love of friends and family. Being alone doesn't really mean being lonely. It's just a matter of how you deal and think about it.

Well, some might agree less but anyhow for those who are in the same boat like me I'm sure can relate. *sight*

Cold Chocolate Drink..

This is my very favorite drink every morning. Without hot chocolate drink my day would definitely be empty.

Few months ago my life had been in circus. Emotions went up and down. And to be honest every morning my cup of hot chocolate drink always turn out to be a cold drink. Too much thinking I guess. :)

But now I am back to normal again. It never turns out cold at all because I am able to finish it real fast. Thanks to all the wonderful people that surrounds me online and offline.

A BIG thank you to our GOD! I draw my strength from him each and everyday and HE never failed me each time I ask for more strength and courage.

Peace

Last night I found peace. It has been a long time already since the last time I felt that way. I know I live my life according to my day-to-day basis. But every day there is something more that I want. Something that hopefully could void the empty part of my inner me. And I've felt it the other night.

I am very transparent person and you can see whatever emotion that I feel for the day. It could be unhappy or happy. lying or telling the whole truth. Seriously, that's how obvious I am in dealing with emotions. I can't pretend to be happy if the mere fact is I am not.

Last night was different from the previous nights. I found the peace that I was longing for. I prayed for that inner peace for the longest time. And God answered me. I claim it, because that is exactly how I feel. I hope that this will be the start of my new beginning. The start of the new life for me.

I just hope and pray for it more. I know God will answer my prayers because HE completely knows that I have been a pretty good girl since from the beginning. And yeah! have flaws too. I am just human. you know.. :)

happy :D

Last night I call it H-A-P-P-I-N-E-S-S!!!!!

I hope that it will be my energy for the whole week. I'll just remember it, when feeling alone strikes again.. OH! man I am just literally happy right now :D

Thoughts of the Day

Don't let heart over power your mind. It causes trouble and leads you in the wrong direction. Stay focus with your goal. Future's happiness depends in your daily action.

I am determine to be successful in my own little ways. find a job, save as much as I could. Sacrifice today and you will be rewarded at the right time.As I said many time even without a man. I am confident I can do it.. :)

By the way, here's what I did yesterday.

After church...

Today is another Day...

I will just take it easy today. There's no much to-do at home.

It's Sunday and my plan includes laundry and church. I am really excited to finishing my training in the next two weeks. I could tell this is really it. the new beginning in me. I anticipate many things. I welcome whatever that will come in the future. I put worries aside now. It's no good worrying about the things that you don't know will happen or not.

I just wanted to be a better person, the stronger type. The one's that when say's NO and mean it. I will put more authority in regards to my decision now. I understand pain is inevitable. whether we like it or not we have to deal with it. Let's just take it slow. It's not a contest anyway...

Prayer

Dear Lord,

I have been a good girl for the past couple of years. If I hurt somebody, that is unintentional. I am sorry if I did that. My heart has been hurt bruise and and wounded but I learnt to forgive the people that causes my heartache. I learn to live life without expecting of what tomorrow will give me. I embrace my daily living solely with all my heart.

I hope that I'll be able to continue do goodness to you and the people around me. Thank you Lord for all the blessings. The good health that you give me and the people that I love is more than enough.

Your Lovely Daughter,

Honey

True LOVE...

It is described in many ways. but it is immeasurable

Friends

Friends are blessings.

They are always there for me whenever I am on the rough road in life. God is so amazing that HE chooses the bestest people to be with me. I only have few friends here in Manila. You can even use your five fingers to count them. Yes! that's how few they are. But, they are the best people that I've known here. In Cebu I also have few of them. I value my friends offline and online.

My online friends rocks!. Though we met in the virtual world most of the time, I could tell how sincere they are to me and of course me to them. We communicate like we are just two houses apart. Just like my Ate Star. I met her through Lainy.

Ate Star is very generous enough to lend her hand when I was so down. She help me realize about how precious life is. She's very inspiring woman and I am so thankful that Lainy introduces me to her.

From the bottom of my heart. I wanted to say THANK YOU ate star for shining on my way... Kisses from me.. xoxo' :)

makati training

I am almost done with my training in Makati. Two more weeks and it will be over. although I still have to take another hotel On-the job training. since I got 95 at the exam, I hope I'll be able to get the privileged of taking the 150 hours only instead of 300 hours. Before, the trainer told me that I could, but then few days later he changed his mind :(

Seriously I NEED a job as soon as possible. My savings is declining already. I just kept spending it. I don't want a zero balance account. I might be getting double job while having an OJT. I miss working. I miss the pressure. I miss those days where all you need is to sleep because your body and mind is so worn out. I can't wait for that day to come again.

My friends are working already. I feel left out. But hey, I won't complain because I know this training will bring goodness in the future. It is worth the wait. patience is a virtue.

The ten commandments of Life...

I think this writings is worth for a re-post. I give Credit to the owner.

Someone has written these beautiful words. Must read and try to understand the deep meaning of it.

They are like the ten commandments to follow in life all the time.

1] Prayer is not a "spare wheel" that you pull out when in trouble, but it is a "steering wheel" that directs the right path throughout.

2] So a Car's WINDSHIELD is so large & the Rear view Mirror is so small? Because our PAST is not as important as our FUTURE. So, Look Ahead and Move on.

3] Friendship is like a BOOK. It takes few seconds to burn, but it takes years to write.

4] All things in life are temporary. If going well, enjoy it, they will not last forever. If going wrong, don't worry, they can't last long either.

5] Old Friends are Gold! New Friends are Diamond! If you get a Diamond, don't forget the Gold! Because to hold a Diamond, you always need a Base of Gold!

6] Often when we lose hope and think this is the end, GOD smiles from above and says, "Relax, sweetheart, it's just a bend, not the end!

7] When GOD solves your problems, you have faith in HIS abilities; when GOD doesn't solve your problems HE has faith in your abilities.

8] A blind person asked St. Anthony: "Can there be anything worse than losing eye sight?" He replied: "Yes, losing your vision!"

9] When you pray for others, God listens to you and blesses them, and sometimes, when you are safe and happy, remember that someone has prayed for you.

10] WORRYING does not take away tomorrow's TROUBLES, it takes away today's PEACE.

If you really enjoy this, please pass to others. It may brighten someone's day...

" Our blessings are not the fruits of our prayers alone,

but those of another praying for us."

Headache!

Is killing me right now. :(

Thank you Ms. Ala.from your avid reader....

I am an avid reader of the beautiful Ala Paredes blog. Since I learned about her there's never a day that I forgot to check her site. The only time I did not hear from her, is when she deleted her 1st blog " Ala-ism.pansitan.net". I really missed her after that. She's a brilliant woman. She can write, draw and host very good and a beautiful model. She's a strong woman and always inspire me in everything she do.

Today when I checked her blog I read her new post tittled "to you" that was after I cry..

I find that message so special. why? because I am praying so hard while crying very much. It seemed to me like God sent me that message. And so after that, I decided to sent Ala Paredes a message in her twitter account saying THANK YOU for being an inspiration.. not long enough she responded my message.

I am so shock! I can't believe that the pretty woman I admire so much who lives half way around the world shares her time reading my post and wrote me back. It changes my mood real fast. The power of internet is amazing...

Again THANK YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH miss Ala Paredes :-)

Be courageous..

Life's journey is tough. Be brave!

It's bumpy stay strong!

It's contiguous KEEP LIVING!

Mix lang...

Everyone has it's own short comings..

I don't want to complaint. As much as possible all I want is to appreciate what life has been giving me. Food clothing and shelter. I can say I am well taken care of. Although I struggle in the matters of the heart.

Once upon a time my heart had been broken. I was in the lowest low. but is able to survive.. God has been the center of my universe. I cried rivers of tears that time. When I feel like the world is turning down, I just grab my rosary and pray(cry as much as I could) or go to shower and cry till the last drop of my tears.

Now I am more inspired to live though. I have been dreaming about it for the longest time. I forgot how to take care of myself(heart matters). But since I met my friends the world becomes different. They help me realize that it's not the end of the world yet. They opened up my eyes and help me widen my horizon. Now I have seen the things that I overlooked before. I thought my world is over. But perhaps God gave me another purpose, another reason to keep living.

I met my friends when I studied college. They've been very nice lending their shoulders to listen the silliest part of me. They see me cry. Laugh. Frown. Mad. and yet still they are there for me. Sometimes I can say, this world is crazy. way more crazy than the living creatures.

When I am in love. I give everything. I make sure that he will feel that he is my world. But after that failed relationship, it seemed like I just NEED to live neutral. Expect the unexpected. that's what I am doing as of the moment.

This has been the story that I've talking many times already. .

call it cheesy, boring or however you name it.. I'm just here expressing my thoughts and opinion.

Another thing. I am busy lately studying of how to become a good hotelier. I hope I will be able to use this knowledge in the future. . .

The training center will help us find jobs outside the country. I am not deciding yet of where to go. It will be my own ship that will take me there.. I hope this boat will not sink like the dreams and plans in the past. Well, for now I don't believe in dreams. It's just an illusion for me. But for the plans. I have many of that. It only depends, with God. wherever he wants me to-be. I'd be gladly willing to go with HIM.

Simply live...

I prefer to live my life in a daily basis. Many months has elapsed already that I decided to live this way. I think it helped me a lot. Decision making wise...

A simple life is not boring at all. No hopes, no expectations. Just breathing the air that is sufficient for the day. Just doing what is really needed to be done. And just do simple things. washing clothes, studying before exam, writing notes, playing around FB. or just a plain grocery shopping. It doesn't matter.

To expect is to get hurt. That is what I know for many years of living in this world. Imagine yourself line up for many hours just to watch your favorite show that You have been wanting to witness real badly and expect that there are many seats available. But what if at the end of the day tickets are sold out and you don't get one? How would you feel????... Bad! ...disappointed!.. I'm sure it will be the emotions that will sink in right then and there. See how expectations can change the feelings of individual so drastic.

It's just a plain example. but I am sure you know what I mean....
That is why I decided to just live my life according to what my day will give. I have dreams and hopes too but to expect??? nah... I honestly don't. And I will not want too. I opted that way. better that way I believe..

They say SIMPLE is BORING... would you agree with them?. As for me. I don't...

Ramblings...

The weather this week changes from time to time. Sometimes the sun is up and sometimes it's hiding from nowhere.

It's like the emotions that I am feeling in the last few days. Honestly I am so looking forward to finish my training. All I need is a job to be able to escape this boredom at home. I don't want to live a life full of sadness. I need an outlet.

I dream of being successful, and I don't just write it down on a piece of paper. I want to work for it. Yeah! This training in Makati is the first step I am taking. Next month I am so done with books, pens and papers.

I will be applying work soon which is the 2nd step on my list. When I get a job. I want to save every penny of my salary. As much as possible I want to purchase only the things I need. Neglect the things I want. I will just buy them in the future when I have enough.

This is the new me. I think I am decision wise now in terms of budgeting. But with emotions I am very weak. I can cry all day when I feel the pain inside my heart. Oh! poor honey. feeling so alone right now..

People around me think I am a Happy woman. They just don't know I've been to a lot of struggles in life..

Oh well... Life is so confusing...


Emotion is like a weather Report.. Sometimes the sun is shining, and sometimes it is hiding while the rain is pouring..

Dinner Dash

I wanna play this one.. Help please :(