Have a Fabulous 2012

I spent my New Years eve at home. I am not alone though.When 12:00 A.M strikes I then open my door and watch fireworks. It was magical as I feel like it falls in my head. The neighbors was with me also while watching. That is why I never felt alone. :D

This 2012 I felt like a different person. My maturity level goes up. Seriously I am more responsible in terms of making decisions and creating goals in life. The drastic change perhaps help me a lot. I will never ever forget the 2011 learning's.

I am completely a new Honey. Armed with determination to reach my dreams. It doesn't matter even if I will walk solo this 2012. Although yes, I admit I missed to be with someone sometimes. but it's OK. Life anyway is temporary. God knows the desire of my heart so I will leave it up to him. He knows a lot better more than me..

My 2012 is kinda exciting year as I look forward to 2 different things.
1. is about work
2. is about ________

Have a sparkling 2012 friends!

2012

In 2012, instead of trying to fix what's broken, how about starting over & creating something even better? #TheSingleWoman

When my computer is acting so slow, I always hit refresh button. Sometimes it does help, but most of the time I end up turning it off then restart later. It's also applicable to life. When things aren't working the way you want it to be how about surrender and let God do the work for you.

2012 is fast approaching and I am anxiously excited for it's arrival. I know their are so many things to anticipate in the coming year. Building a new life isn't hard at all for me. I have already accepted the fact that my past is now a part of history. I am very thankful to my friends world wide.. chaaarrrr!

It's really true that things happened for a reason. Just learn to accept then peace of mind will come naturally and blessings will pour endlessly.

My advice is just do- the best that you can to achieve your goal. Their will be so many ways and never give up. But if things aren't meant for you. then again don't be frustrated and never loose Hope. Just surrender everything to God. He will do- the - work for You....

Merry Christmas Everyone!

Happy Birthday Jesus!




Wishing everyone a very MERRY CHRISTMAS. . . Live Laugh and Love ...

2011

I feel the spirit of Christmas and the breeze of new year. 2011 for me is BIG CHALLENGE. My emotions went up and down to the point that it almost make me loose my life. Yes! I almost die in the middle of 2011.(only few of my friends know the real score).

2011 is also a blessings for me. why?

1.) I graduated college with flying colors.
2.) I am able to met amazing people (online and offline)
3.) I finished my HRA training in Makati.
4.) And.... s-e-c-r-e-t! nalang. hehehehe!


Seriously I feel really special. And I thank God for that BIG time.. :)

Reflection. . .

Early this morning, I attended the first morning mass in preparation for Christmas. It's just me, myself and I as usual. . .

While walking alone, I felt a little scared. The road is so dark that I couldn't even figure out what's ahead of me. If their will be bad people at the end of the road then, I'm definitely be in trouble. But because I have a feeling that nothing bad will happen, I decided to continue walking.

The situation makes me reflect of what is happening in every individuals life. As for me the road symbolizes our journey here on Earth. We know for a fact that we cannot predict what our future will be. It's like walking on that dark road.But even though we don't know exactly what will happen ahead of us, we still continue walking. Because it is given already that their is only one dance step here on earth. That is by always stepping your foot forward. Either walking or striding. No matter what your position will be.

Somehow, past experiences were considered as guide, that will give you courage in walking towards your destination. It will help you become a strong person or perhaps a precarious individual. either way, It's your choice :)

Have a Merry Christmas Everyone!

Life's quote

This one is very inspiring!

As we grow up, we learn that even the one
person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down
probably will. You will have your heart broken probably
more than once and it's harder every time. You'll
break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours
was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll
blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry
because time is passing too fast, and you'll
eventually lose someone you love. So take too many
pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt
because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a
minute of happiness you'll never get back.

~Unknown~

Hello.. After goodbye

Learn to say Hello after a sad Goodbye...

Exit doesn't always means a lifetime of unhappiness. Sometimes it means that a new opportunity is on it's way. People always felt sad in goodbyes. I for one used to believe the same thing. But as I grew older and wiser I learned that every after goodbye is always a new hello.

We have to understand, that this world that we live in is full of mystery. If we learn to embrace acceptance and change then the worries of goodbye won't affect us so badly. Goodbye is always present in our daily life. It's just up to us how are we going to face it. Although YES! It always hurt in the beginning(like the death of our loved ones.) But along the way on this journey we will kind of used to it and accept that we cannot hold certain things on our hand. Some things are inevitable, and goodbye is a part of it.

Say Hello tomorrow. Life is beautiful if we only learn how to dance gracefully.

New beginning- New ME!

I wanted to spread out positive vibes around this blog. I think the crying is over. Now I am ready to face a new battle in life. I fear less and I am now a braver person. Letting go of my emotional baggage really helped a lot in coping with stress,depression and heartbreak in the past.

To begin with, I wanted to talk about how beautiful my love story was. I thought it was the perfect relationship I had all my life. I always go out with a happy heart, even thought my partner is not beside me. Even though he lives a thousand miles away from me. It was OK because I completely trust him. But just like every love story, there comes a point in a relationship where time will test how strong the foundation you both created. My partner gave up. He weren't strong enough to stand still. His very weak and our love story collapsed. It was sad. The beautiful love story has to come to an end. Although the moving on was hard. the daily encounter was a struggle. But as of this writing I am proud to say that ME, MYSELF and I is completely OK [insert smile :) here].

Right now, my focus is to be an inspiration to everyone out there who is undergoing emotional breakdown. I was once there. I was one of those many woman that cried before and after bed time. Awakening in the wee hours is no fun at all. Feeling so lonely and scared of being alone for the rest of my life is never easy. But see? I am able to survive.Where I am right now is because of my positive outlook on life.

So to those of you who has a broken heart my advice is to just take it easy. Cry if you need to, Cry as much as you want. talk to your friends, no matter how many times you brought out the topic it's OK. they have no choice but to listen anyway. talk to yourself. go out wherever your feet leads you, Lock yourself in your room, starve if you like, eat even though your tummy is full, sleep, write a note, sing, dance and be crazy. But most of all at the end of the day PRAY. I was able to let go all of those heartaches and let God in towards my life. Trust me, HE heal my wounded heart completely.

Having a broken heart is just a part of being human. There's nothing we can do while were still alive, but to continue living. No matter how tough the time is I've learned that everything in life is temporary. So let's enjoy every moment while were alive. Because all this earthly experiences will just come to an end and for sure there will be no more tears in HEAVEN.. :-)

Twilight

Yesterday I, along with three of my girl friends went out to watch a movie. I love twilight. I love Edward and Bella's love story. I love how martyr Jacob is. I am a fan of their love triangle. While watching Bella and Edward on their wedding, I can't help but got teary eyed. It's every woman's dream to walk in the aisle with a beautiful wedding dress. It's a woman's dream also to be able to have someone that will love her so deeply and will hold on through the test of time.. ahhh.. I'm just perhaps a hopeless romantic young woman. ehheemm! :)

Anyways here's our photo as a souvenir.. :)

I just find that second picture cute.. Me and my boy.. LOL

Just daily

I am quite busy this past days. Been running here and there for some important matter. Good thing I am almost done with it. Next stop is to Concentrate on finding job again. Why again? It's because I did that already and yes, I passed all the process but I decided not to pursue with it.

It's a hard decision to make. Yes! I need that job so bad, but I also need to finish with my P. I don't regret with my decision though. I am more than glad that I complete everything I need(not everything, as I need one more thing from my school) Good Lord, I pray that I will get my S.O soon. That's the only piece that I need.

Anyway, just a little proud of myself lately. I can stroll around anywhere without taking a taxi. Before It makes me so scared to just ride a jeepney. I am more comfy with riding a taxi. But now I am really a different person. I turn 180 degrees away from my life before. hmmmm.. I think what I've been through boost out my confidence.

Oh! before I end this post. I just wanted to share how happy I am. did 2 things today.

Thank you visitors...

I decided to put a counter on the bottom right side of my blog. I just wanted to see if I still have reader even my blog is a little boring. :D

First day of the counter, I just see 1 from Philippines which is obviously me. Then 3 days later I see 5 from different side of the world..whew! I didn't realize I have a fan. LOL! exaggerate nman yung reaction ko..

Whoever you are I just want to say THANK YOU for visiting my simple home. :)

I missed you :(

That is exactly how I feel today. pero OK lang I am kind of used to it. later I will be fine for sure and will show off my teeth again.. Ahhhh.. Daily life, daily struggle.. :)

Ears and some docu....

My left ear is hurting. I am thinking of going to the Doctor Tuesday. Tomorrow I have to go-to SSS to have my contribution print out. I need to have a pile of documents for some reason.

Last week was a busy week for me. I had to wake up 4 in the morning and leave the house before 5 so that I will be able to finish my NBI clearance early. After I got the clearance I rush to Quezon City hall to get a police clearance. I am almost done with papers.

My job hunting had been set aside for days now. Oh well, I just have to keep priorities in order..

Thanks God..

Everyday is an exciting day for me. I can't help but look forward in the future. I thought I won't be able to have this feeling again. A feeling of anticipation and excitement. But I was wrong..

God works in many ways. Thank you Lord for this wonderful blessing.


an envelope absolutely, positively has to be there overnight.

♥HAPPY BITHDAY MOM♥

It's mommy Jenene's birthday today. I call her up on the phone singing and making a wish for her. She's my 2nd mommy not by blood but by heart. After my biological mom passed away mommy Jenene always tried her best to stand up as my mother. We have a very good mother -daughter relationship up until now.

She cried during the time I was so down and depress. She always tells me how much she loves me. She has the kindest heart in the universe. I love her so dearly. And even if her son and I weren't able to surpass all the trials in the relationship I still want to keep mommy Jenene for all my life.

I definitely wanted to see her again. I hope it will be soon.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH FOREVER MY DEAREST MOMMY JENENE♥♥♥

Note: It's November 04 in the United States right now and it's officially her birthday..

Pinoy Big Brother...

Yes!

I feel ecstatic last Saturday. My ever favorite reality show is aired once again. I think I've been whining too much of why does big brother prolonged my agony of waiting.. hahahha! nah. I actually did not do-it.'. I just exaggerate a little to much.

Anyway, I am so updated with what's happening inside kuya's(big brother) house. In fact, I asked the neighbor to please put my antenna so that I can watch it in my TV clearly. So glad the neighbor said yes fast. I have been watching this show since series 1. I remember vividly when mom and I slept real late at night. She used to make some midnight snacks for us. And when there's a drama inside the house mom and eye cried together. LOL!

Now I will be watching it alone here. no one is with me no more, or maybe mom is just seating beside me. How I wish.. :)

I missed Cebu..

I missed home.

It's when this time of the year where people in my hometown gather all together. Familiar faces walking along the streets and new generations are growing fast.I so missed those childhood days I spent with my kababata. The unending chit-chats with them was priceless.

This quote makes sense to me.

"The clock is running. Make the most of today. Time waits for no man. Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why it is called the present."

It's really true. isn't it? Sometimes I wish I can go back to that certain time in my life. And sometimes also I wish I can hold the hands of time. But it's one of those impossible dreams. No one can do that. We all are here in this world for a purpose.

I don't know what's my purpose just yet(but I have an idea). How about you? Do you know already yours?

Everyday is a blessing!

I always find a little bit of joy in everyday of my life.

I try to keep myself occupied daily. Each and every single day I go out and find a job(call center). Also it is everyday that I get frustrated because I failed. I do passed the first step (initial interview) 2nd (online exam: phone calls, speed test, accuracy test, spelling and computer knowledge)

BUT.. when it comes to FINAL INTERVIEW that's where I'm turned down.

It takes 5 hours to get to the final interview. One time after hearing the result that I failed I wanted to burst out into tears. How I wished they failed me in that initial interview, that way I will not wait for that long. While on the way home I told myself I wanted to stop for a while. But the other part of me is still pushing me to go on.

Each day I learned little things about me. I learned how to ride an MRT alone. I learned that even if I have no job for the moment I am still blessed as compared to other people. I have a comfortable bed at home, I can buy clothes if I want to and can eat descent food if I feel like. That's a big thing that we need to survive. When I see people sleeping in the street, I felt sorry for them. So see how blessed I am.

Fast forward.. Yesterday I tried to find job again. Walking around Makati even though the sun shines so brightly. I did not care. All I want is to try again. Then I see this banner/billboard. And so without second thought I went inside the building and go up in the 12th floor. I have all the guts again to apply.. The lady accept my resume, and asked me to wait for my name to-be called for an exam.

Fast forward again.. I took the first exam and passed it. Took the 2nd exam and passed it..Wait for an hour for my Interview. This time around I feel lucky... no need to elaborate. LOL!

This too shall pass...

Speaking from the heart. I honestly wanted to rest for one more week. I don't feel like going out and finding a job just yet. Those days at the hotel drown all of my energy, that is why right now I want to be lazy even just for few more days.

BUT...

I have a need to find a job as soon as possible. My budget is not in good shape now. I felt sad thinking about this. This year I've reach the lowest point in my life. I never imagine myself going through this boat. never at all..

BUT then again...

This boat of unhappiness makes me a better person. It helps me realize that life is not a bed of roses. It could be a bed of roses, but with thorns in it. OUCH! hehehhe.... As for me everything happens for a certain reason. So many uncertainty. right? My life and emotions is in limbo(literally) one minute I am OK and next minute I felt alone and neglected.

BUT....

it's OK.... nO MATTER how many bucket of tears I cried everyday, LIFE for me goes on... because I'm sure

THIS TOO SHALL PASS

Trip to Tagaytay with my TECP friends..

Saturday morning when we decided to go to Tagaytay to unwind. I was loaded with work the past few days and so I decided to be with friends to smell some fresh air away from the City. It was so much fun. We had a blast strolling around the place. The view is refreshing.. It makes me realize the more to work hard and save a lot so I can buy a property there(wishful thinking lang). I know I can't afford . but who knows. dba?

Here's few of our pictures...

No Other Woman...

Yesterday my friend Jane invited me to watch movie with her. I feel super lazy to go out, but because she needs company I decided to grant her wish. Everything was free. From movie, to food to coffee. Actually I wanted to get money from my pocket but she did not let me. I feel a little shy but she assure that it's really OK. so I just said thank you..

Well, anyway here's the movie. My ever favorite Anne Curtis is in the lead role... :)

positive mind...

How time flies so fast. Right now, I am journeying a new chapter in my life. Who would have thought that a crying lady with a broken heart(not anymore) that was me turns out to be a full grown up woman.

When I looked back my life six months ago. I can't help but smile and feeling so PROUD of myself(right now). My life is never perfect (I thought it was). No one has/had a perfect life. I've learnt, that everyone undergo the same frustrations and heartaches like mine. Strong people survive(including myself) but negative people failed (sad)


Well anyways life has so many twist and turns. What is important is that we just have to stay strong. If today ended with tears of pain, for sure tomorrow will be another day. There could be pain or sorrow, but remember there is always joy and success along the ways.

KEEP GOD as your refuge, and FAITH as your Armour. then everything else follows!

Life is Full of surprises!

Lord Thank You sooooooooo much!
You design my life creatively. Sometimes
I don't understand life. But you help me survive
in my daily encounter. I trust your will Oh Lord...

I hope this is the beginning of my future.
Please Lord stay with me in my journey forever.

Love Always...

Your Beautiful Daughter,
Honeybunch


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I am extremely Happy right now. I couldn't believe I did it..

It still feels like a dream. But it's NOT! This is for real..

God works in mysterious ways.. super mysterious..

Memories..

While browsing photos in my computer. I accidentally stumble a picture dated April 12, 2011. Tears just keep rolling in my eyes while staring to that photo.

A sad memories. A beautiful story with a sad ending.

As of this writing, I still can't believe that we part ways. Two happy souls, dreaming beautiful dream and tomorrows for each other. To have and to hold till death-do us part..

The promises were carried away by the waves in the ocean. It's nowhere now.. It's hidden in the deep sorrow.

But... I still continue living my life. I still continue believing in my dreams. It is offen strange to think how life often throws us a curve ball. and wonder why did things happen a certain way...

All I know is a fact that life is beautiful. Even though my heart is filled with sorrow sometimes. I am not loosing hope, that someday I will be loved again by someone. Hoping that this someone will be forever mine... :)

The typhoon that was...

Last Tuesday I braved myself going to work even Manila is in signal no.3 .When I left home the rain just pour a little so I thought it was just a mistake weather update (kidding). The problem starts after I stepped out in the bus. The wind starts to blow hard, that I could no longer use my umbrella. The rain is still calm the same situation as I left the house but it was non-stop.

I asked the boss, that I will leave early as I don't want to-be caught up in traffic. I feel so scared to be stranded in the city of Manila where drug addict and crazy people are countless. So glad that she allow me.

Many passengers were waiting for the bus. The rain starts to pour so heavy and water starts to increase its level. I felt nervous at that time. When thirty minutes had passed by already and no bus yet is coming I decided to cross the street. I did not brave on the flood. It was nasty and I don't wanna get sick. So I decided to call a trikes and pay money to the driver. better that way.

After an hour of waiting finally a non-air condition bus came. I felt relieve and happy. While inside the bus, I told myself not to-go outside the house when typhoon occur. I have learnt that lesson that day. LOL!

Here's some photos from my phone.

Mode of the Day...

Right now, I feel so bored at home. Is it because of the weather? I don't know... There is no electricity at home. No water too.. duhhhh!

I don't want to complain but honestly I feel like it sucks today. No email. nothing.... haist! :(

Life

is full of SURPRISES!!!! :)

Emotions

Has a lot of Twist and Turns...

:)

This is my very favorite quote about happiness... :)

So Damn exhausted!

I am literally exhausted right now. The traffic to and from work is so damn congested. My head aches so bad that I feel like I wanted to burst out into tears. I hate what I feel right now. I better go take a shower and call it a day. Good night folks. I hope to feel better tomorrow. *deepest sight*

Happy Birthday Mom..

My mom is in heaven now. She is with the company of our God almighty. But even though I cannot see her physically I still want to feel her warm embrace. I want to hear her sweet voice that is full of love. My mother is the best woman in the world for me. I Love her to death!

And on her special day I want her to know that I Love her so much. No one can replace her in my heart. Thank you nanay for comforting me during my sleepless nights. I feel your presence right now. I know your watching us and protecting us everyday of our lives.. I Love you!

Happy..Happy birthday!

Linen attendant

I am so busy the whole week. I have to go-to work real early to accomplish my task. Why early? because I want everything to be done perfectly. I am very slow just yet in filling out paper works. Making Room status report, Room boy report, Linen requisitions for every room boy and many more to follow. My whole day is so busy.

I honestly love the way my day works now. When I get home I have to-do my laundry (uniform). I have to make sure that room is clean before leaving house for work. I take care of myself responsibly.

To sum up all my whole week is real hectic. I am not complaining. In fact I felt ecstatic because I am now in the process of materializing my future plan. I hope that the hands of time will be nice to me this time around. I know God is there watching me every single minute of my day. I am matured now, and crossed fingers I will make good choices this time around.. :)

15 Random "List" about me.

As I was blog hopping. I saw a couple of post about random list. So might as well create a list of my own. para my magawa lang. LOL!

1.) I am God's beautiful princess.

2.) I am definitely not a bitter person.

3.) I learnt to forgive the man that broke my heart.

4.) I am vulnerable when in a relationship..But

5.) I learn not to give my all now.

6.) I am lucky to have wonderful friends around me.

7.)I don't like eating fruits. They are not my type of food :(

8.)I don't spent too much time in front of the lappy as compared 2 years ago.

9.) I have Facebook, twitter and email..LOL!

10.) I love talking. so I might end up working in a call center company.

11.) I value people and experience more than anything else.

12.) I am excited to work in the hospitality industry in the big "C"

13.) I don't feel like living in Cebu again.

14.) I hope to work soon+save loootsss+Travel outside the country.

15.) I don't like thinking too much. bec. I will just end up crying.

Right now I have stronger faith to God as compared to the past years. I acknowledge him in my life. His my ultimate savior. I am so inspired to live a life of my own. To dream big using my ability and skills. I am also inspired by my friends around me.

Through the Test of time..

I still can't get over researching about Chris and Juliana's love story. The man chris is a real man with words. I felt so sad that it happened to them. 2 months before the wedding Juliana had a car accident that leads her to what she is right now. She has brain damage. But it did not stop chris to love her. He adore her to death and his truly an angel. A so called angel without wings.

Even if I don't know the 2 of them. I sent a prayer and wish Juliana well. God bless Christ heart too.. His such a sweet guy. :)

What Are Words lyrics

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then their done
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud, those words
They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

What Are words

What are Words

By: Chris Medina

This is part of the lyrics...

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I am so touched by their love story. I know for a fact that true love exist. This 2 people are one of the best example. To Christ: Your the man dude!

Pure teardrops, PURE LOVE

Tonight's episode will be very interesting. Diane Shin got her first tear. It is when she cried in the middle of the road because she still wants to continue living. She don't want to die yet. True enough that "Life is Beautiful" .. It also makes me realize of loving myself first because how can you love or how can other people love you when you don't even know how to love yourself?.

Well guyz, if you don't know what I am talking about, I will tell you a little story about it...

I am so addicted with this Korean TV series.

It's a story about a girl(Dianne Shin) who is treated like a princess to her friends and family. She's a rich girl and everybody loves her. She's getting married in a few days before she got an accident and in Comatose. This time the scheduler appears. He is heaven sent. He gave Dianne Shen 49 days to collect pure tear-drops.

According to the scheduler, there are many kinds of tears. And Dianne's task is to collect tears of 3 people that truly love her (her parents is not included). In order for her to-do it Dianne uses Ysabelle Songs body. Ysabelle lost her boyfriends 5 years ago and suffer depression since then. She wanted to commit suicide.

Another character is Dave Han. His one of Dianne's friend and I think he loves Dianne secretly, but sad that Dave's bestfriend is Dianne's fiancee(Raymond Kang). Raymond have a secret affair with Dianne's bestfriend kayla shin. . .

Anyways the story is very addicting. I don't even skip watching it at night.. I so damn love it.. hehehhe!

Just Daily

It's been raining non-stop since Thursday. I hope the rain will completely gone before I run out of clean clothes. I have a pile of laundry and I hate it.

Wednesday I will start working again. Iam looking forward to finish my medical exam so that I can forward my documents to the agency. I hope and pray that this training will give a good fruit in the future. I am claiming it with faith.

So Help me God... :)

Old photo..

Some old photo...

Rant

I don't know if it's a good morning for me. The neighbor is very noisy at 4:00 A.M. They are so inconsiderate. Damn!

Soon..

Wednesday Aug. 24 and Friday Aug. 26.... Yay! Excited lang.. hahahah!

I want a vacation...

Someday when the time is right, I want to treat myself a grande vacation. It could be just me, myself and I or the company of friends it doesn't matter. I know I deserve this. My own self had been suffering so much and I am thankful that I am not a quitter. The hurricane that passed by in my life made me a better and stronger individual as I am right now. If in case someday I'll be facing a new challenge again I am sure I will be able to surpass it all. As a human who is alive and kicking, I believe problem is just a part of our daily endeavor. It will mold and help us to create a more firm decision in different aspect of life.

My goal of working and saving hasn't changed yet. Love can wait I am sure of that. But even though I am not meant for someone, I will still consider myself lucky because of the love of friends and family. Being alone doesn't really mean being lonely. It's just a matter of how you deal and think about it.

Well, some might agree less but anyhow for those who are in the same boat like me I'm sure can relate. *sight*

Cold Chocolate Drink..

This is my very favorite drink every morning. Without hot chocolate drink my day would definitely be empty.

Few months ago my life had been in circus. Emotions went up and down. And to be honest every morning my cup of hot chocolate drink always turn out to be a cold drink. Too much thinking I guess. :)

But now I am back to normal again. It never turns out cold at all because I am able to finish it real fast. Thanks to all the wonderful people that surrounds me online and offline.

A BIG thank you to our GOD! I draw my strength from him each and everyday and HE never failed me each time I ask for more strength and courage.

Peace

Last night I found peace. It has been a long time already since the last time I felt that way. I know I live my life according to my day-to-day basis. But every day there is something more that I want. Something that hopefully could void the empty part of my inner me. And I've felt it the other night.

I am very transparent person and you can see whatever emotion that I feel for the day. It could be unhappy or happy. lying or telling the whole truth. Seriously, that's how obvious I am in dealing with emotions. I can't pretend to be happy if the mere fact is I am not.

Last night was different from the previous nights. I found the peace that I was longing for. I prayed for that inner peace for the longest time. And God answered me. I claim it, because that is exactly how I feel. I hope that this will be the start of my new beginning. The start of the new life for me.

I just hope and pray for it more. I know God will answer my prayers because HE completely knows that I have been a pretty good girl since from the beginning. And yeah! have flaws too. I am just human. you know.. :)

happy :D

Last night I call it H-A-P-P-I-N-E-S-S!!!!!

I hope that it will be my energy for the whole week. I'll just remember it, when feeling alone strikes again.. OH! man I am just literally happy right now :D

Thoughts of the Day

Don't let heart over power your mind. It causes trouble and leads you in the wrong direction. Stay focus with your goal. Future's happiness depends in your daily action.

I am determine to be successful in my own little ways. find a job, save as much as I could. Sacrifice today and you will be rewarded at the right time.As I said many time even without a man. I am confident I can do it.. :)

By the way, here's what I did yesterday.

After church...

Today is another Day...

I will just take it easy today. There's no much to-do at home.

It's Sunday and my plan includes laundry and church. I am really excited to finishing my training in the next two weeks. I could tell this is really it. the new beginning in me. I anticipate many things. I welcome whatever that will come in the future. I put worries aside now. It's no good worrying about the things that you don't know will happen or not.

I just wanted to be a better person, the stronger type. The one's that when say's NO and mean it. I will put more authority in regards to my decision now. I understand pain is inevitable. whether we like it or not we have to deal with it. Let's just take it slow. It's not a contest anyway...

Prayer

Dear Lord,

I have been a good girl for the past couple of years. If I hurt somebody, that is unintentional. I am sorry if I did that. My heart has been hurt bruise and and wounded but I learnt to forgive the people that causes my heartache. I learn to live life without expecting of what tomorrow will give me. I embrace my daily living solely with all my heart.

I hope that I'll be able to continue do goodness to you and the people around me. Thank you Lord for all the blessings. The good health that you give me and the people that I love is more than enough.

Your Lovely Daughter,

Honey

True LOVE...

It is described in many ways. but it is immeasurable

Friends

Friends are blessings.

They are always there for me whenever I am on the rough road in life. God is so amazing that HE chooses the bestest people to be with me. I only have few friends here in Manila. You can even use your five fingers to count them. Yes! that's how few they are. But, they are the best people that I've known here. In Cebu I also have few of them. I value my friends offline and online.

My online friends rocks!. Though we met in the virtual world most of the time, I could tell how sincere they are to me and of course me to them. We communicate like we are just two houses apart. Just like my Ate Star. I met her through Lainy.

Ate Star is very generous enough to lend her hand when I was so down. She help me realize about how precious life is. She's very inspiring woman and I am so thankful that Lainy introduces me to her.

From the bottom of my heart. I wanted to say THANK YOU ate star for shining on my way... Kisses from me.. xoxo' :)

makati training

I am almost done with my training in Makati. Two more weeks and it will be over. although I still have to take another hotel On-the job training. since I got 95 at the exam, I hope I'll be able to get the privileged of taking the 150 hours only instead of 300 hours. Before, the trainer told me that I could, but then few days later he changed his mind :(

Seriously I NEED a job as soon as possible. My savings is declining already. I just kept spending it. I don't want a zero balance account. I might be getting double job while having an OJT. I miss working. I miss the pressure. I miss those days where all you need is to sleep because your body and mind is so worn out. I can't wait for that day to come again.

My friends are working already. I feel left out. But hey, I won't complain because I know this training will bring goodness in the future. It is worth the wait. patience is a virtue.

The ten commandments of Life...

I think this writings is worth for a re-post. I give Credit to the owner.

Someone has written these beautiful words. Must read and try to understand the deep meaning of it.

They are like the ten commandments to follow in life all the time.

1] Prayer is not a "spare wheel" that you pull out when in trouble, but it is a "steering wheel" that directs the right path throughout.

2] So a Car's WINDSHIELD is so large & the Rear view Mirror is so small? Because our PAST is not as important as our FUTURE. So, Look Ahead and Move on.

3] Friendship is like a BOOK. It takes few seconds to burn, but it takes years to write.

4] All things in life are temporary. If going well, enjoy it, they will not last forever. If going wrong, don't worry, they can't last long either.

5] Old Friends are Gold! New Friends are Diamond! If you get a Diamond, don't forget the Gold! Because to hold a Diamond, you always need a Base of Gold!

6] Often when we lose hope and think this is the end, GOD smiles from above and says, "Relax, sweetheart, it's just a bend, not the end!

7] When GOD solves your problems, you have faith in HIS abilities; when GOD doesn't solve your problems HE has faith in your abilities.

8] A blind person asked St. Anthony: "Can there be anything worse than losing eye sight?" He replied: "Yes, losing your vision!"

9] When you pray for others, God listens to you and blesses them, and sometimes, when you are safe and happy, remember that someone has prayed for you.

10] WORRYING does not take away tomorrow's TROUBLES, it takes away today's PEACE.

If you really enjoy this, please pass to others. It may brighten someone's day...

" Our blessings are not the fruits of our prayers alone,

but those of another praying for us."

Headache!

Is killing me right now. :(

Thank you Ms. Ala.from your avid reader....

I am an avid reader of the beautiful Ala Paredes blog. Since I learned about her there's never a day that I forgot to check her site. The only time I did not hear from her, is when she deleted her 1st blog " Ala-ism.pansitan.net". I really missed her after that. She's a brilliant woman. She can write, draw and host very good and a beautiful model. She's a strong woman and always inspire me in everything she do.

Today when I checked her blog I read her new post tittled "to you" that was after I cry..

I find that message so special. why? because I am praying so hard while crying very much. It seemed to me like God sent me that message. And so after that, I decided to sent Ala Paredes a message in her twitter account saying THANK YOU for being an inspiration.. not long enough she responded my message.

I am so shock! I can't believe that the pretty woman I admire so much who lives half way around the world shares her time reading my post and wrote me back. It changes my mood real fast. The power of internet is amazing...

Again THANK YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH miss Ala Paredes :-)

Be courageous..

Life's journey is tough. Be brave!

It's bumpy stay strong!

It's contiguous KEEP LIVING!

Mix lang...

Everyone has it's own short comings..

I don't want to complaint. As much as possible all I want is to appreciate what life has been giving me. Food clothing and shelter. I can say I am well taken care of. Although I struggle in the matters of the heart.

Once upon a time my heart had been broken. I was in the lowest low. but is able to survive.. God has been the center of my universe. I cried rivers of tears that time. When I feel like the world is turning down, I just grab my rosary and pray(cry as much as I could) or go to shower and cry till the last drop of my tears.

Now I am more inspired to live though. I have been dreaming about it for the longest time. I forgot how to take care of myself(heart matters). But since I met my friends the world becomes different. They help me realize that it's not the end of the world yet. They opened up my eyes and help me widen my horizon. Now I have seen the things that I overlooked before. I thought my world is over. But perhaps God gave me another purpose, another reason to keep living.

I met my friends when I studied college. They've been very nice lending their shoulders to listen the silliest part of me. They see me cry. Laugh. Frown. Mad. and yet still they are there for me. Sometimes I can say, this world is crazy. way more crazy than the living creatures.

When I am in love. I give everything. I make sure that he will feel that he is my world. But after that failed relationship, it seemed like I just NEED to live neutral. Expect the unexpected. that's what I am doing as of the moment.

This has been the story that I've talking many times already. .

call it cheesy, boring or however you name it.. I'm just here expressing my thoughts and opinion.

Another thing. I am busy lately studying of how to become a good hotelier. I hope I will be able to use this knowledge in the future. . .

The training center will help us find jobs outside the country. I am not deciding yet of where to go. It will be my own ship that will take me there.. I hope this boat will not sink like the dreams and plans in the past. Well, for now I don't believe in dreams. It's just an illusion for me. But for the plans. I have many of that. It only depends, with God. wherever he wants me to-be. I'd be gladly willing to go with HIM.

Simply live...

I prefer to live my life in a daily basis. Many months has elapsed already that I decided to live this way. I think it helped me a lot. Decision making wise...

A simple life is not boring at all. No hopes, no expectations. Just breathing the air that is sufficient for the day. Just doing what is really needed to be done. And just do simple things. washing clothes, studying before exam, writing notes, playing around FB. or just a plain grocery shopping. It doesn't matter.

To expect is to get hurt. That is what I know for many years of living in this world. Imagine yourself line up for many hours just to watch your favorite show that You have been wanting to witness real badly and expect that there are many seats available. But what if at the end of the day tickets are sold out and you don't get one? How would you feel????... Bad! ...disappointed!.. I'm sure it will be the emotions that will sink in right then and there. See how expectations can change the feelings of individual so drastic.

It's just a plain example. but I am sure you know what I mean....
That is why I decided to just live my life according to what my day will give. I have dreams and hopes too but to expect??? nah... I honestly don't. And I will not want too. I opted that way. better that way I believe..

They say SIMPLE is BORING... would you agree with them?. As for me. I don't...

Ramblings...

The weather this week changes from time to time. Sometimes the sun is up and sometimes it's hiding from nowhere.

It's like the emotions that I am feeling in the last few days. Honestly I am so looking forward to finish my training. All I need is a job to be able to escape this boredom at home. I don't want to live a life full of sadness. I need an outlet.

I dream of being successful, and I don't just write it down on a piece of paper. I want to work for it. Yeah! This training in Makati is the first step I am taking. Next month I am so done with books, pens and papers.

I will be applying work soon which is the 2nd step on my list. When I get a job. I want to save every penny of my salary. As much as possible I want to purchase only the things I need. Neglect the things I want. I will just buy them in the future when I have enough.

This is the new me. I think I am decision wise now in terms of budgeting. But with emotions I am very weak. I can cry all day when I feel the pain inside my heart. Oh! poor honey. feeling so alone right now..

People around me think I am a Happy woman. They just don't know I've been to a lot of struggles in life..

Oh well... Life is so confusing...


Emotion is like a weather Report.. Sometimes the sun is shining, and sometimes it is hiding while the rain is pouring..

Dinner Dash

I wanna play this one.. Help please :(

The lucky girl in Me..

Yesterday I went to the mall to-do my normal routine grocery shopping. But since I find it a little early I decided to go to game land and play my favorite game. It's a war between the zombie. I am a hero helping those fellas escaping from the not so nice looking zombies. LOL!

Anyways on the way to the 3rd floor. I see a board saying NBI clearance. Since I need one so badly because the one's that I have is work abroad not visa for Canada I then asked information at the guard. He told me that there are no people around. He said if I will get one I can be home real fast. By the way I heard on the news last week how hassle it is to get NBI clearance. So instead of me playing and wandering around the game land I decided to go home take a taxi ride and get requirements for my NBI.

When I get inside(cinema). True enough I only see 4 people staff are not included. the process was so fast... I got mine in less than 30 minutes. Wow! Lucky girl.. :)

Final Exam...

Yesterday was my final exam at the training center. The subject is housekeeping. Although I am done with studying that subject back in college I still find it a little tough since the one that we take up (latest) is based on tourism Canadian standard. The Training center helps deploy people from Philippines to work in the hotel industry in Canada. I know it's just a little of destiny. But I do believe in prayers more..

According to the instructor, if we will get 90% of the exam, that means we will have a chance to work only 150 hours On-the -job training instead of 300 hours. I hope and pray that my score will at least be 90. the exam is 1-100. I honestly wanted to get a job soon. I will get crazy here at home without it. Staying all day inside the four corners of my room is never healthy. I feel isolated. Going out? nah! I don't wanna. It's just a waste of time and money..

I am thinking of re-applying in convergy's though. I hope they will still consider hiring me again. .

Next month we will be taking up new subject. ielts I believe. . .

Study + Azkals...

While reading chapters 1-5. a friend sent me an email, so I decided to read it. Then talk on the phone for a couple minutes. After the short chit chat I remember about azkals. Today is their game vs. kuwait so I turned on the TV and watched it.

The tension was there. I even scream for support. I love soccer,football more than any other sports. I remember clearly a family friend who is a varsity player used to invite me and the family watched him play. That was maybe 10 years ago. and that's how I started loving the game.

When I tuned in. the score is 1-0 in favor of Azkals. But after a couple minutes kuwaity scored also. Then after few more minutes another goal in favor of kuwait. I felt scared so I turned the T.V off. hehehe! I decided to just read tweets instead of watching.

Game is over. I find out that azkals looses the game and won't be able to qualify for 2014 world cup legue. I felt a little sad. But hey. It's not a disappointment since I see the boys play with heart and passion. It isn't easy for kuwait to kick azkals ass. Even though they loose the game I still am proud being a pilipino..

Well, so much for this. I think I have to go back reading/studying again or else I will loose the opportunity to get better grades. This is the final judgement. I hope and pray I will be able to pass this test with flying colours..

going back here for good...

I am planning of really going back to blogging world for good. As you have noticed most of the time I am invisible. I honestly check my site everyday but don't have the guts to post anything that's new..

I consider myself dead for the last few months. Now I am back. Alive and kicking with a new hope that life will be good to me this time around. I wanted to be back monetize my blog like I used too. Sleepless nights waiting for opps (old PPP style).. hehehe! I think it's no longer like that. They have a new way of giving opps. right? I will find out later...

I also consider myself buying a new domain quite an idea as for now. I know there's a lot of things to be done and to consider before this blog will earn income again. Slowly I am rebuilding it.

This is the new me.. Born again. and will be rocking the blogging world soon.. nyayykzz!

Above all...

Thank you Lord for being a wonderful God always!

will tell you later...

I am H-A-P-P-Y right now...

St. Peter

I love visiting different churches. I always have this feeling of peace every time I am in God's house. Releasing the pain and sharing happy thoughts to him. And today I will show you my church. Every Sunday you can find me here.

Here's the road outside the church

View inside the church...

Beautiful St. Peter church..

Solitude

Growing up I thought solitude is something I feared the most. I told myself I will be with someone someday. Someone that will appreciate me no matter how worst my looks will be when I first wake up. Someone that will complete me as a person. Compliment me in everything I do. bad or good.

But things changes as time passes by. I realize everything is not according to our own will and plan. God is more powerful than us. He is the only one who knows what our future will become.

Now I came to realize that being alone is something not-to-be feared of. It is something that needs to embrace solely.

For the last few months I am alone. .

Being alone? It's OK...

It's better to be single and happy, rather than to be in a hurtful relationship

I am surrounded with wonderful people (online and offline). That's something to be thankful about. Right now I am enjoying every second of my life. Taking care of my heart. When I'm in love I am vulnerable. My fragile heart has been cheated and broken. But somehow it is still working. It never made me a bitter person, but a stronger person yes instead. It was me who stop the bleeding. and prayers helped me the healing.

I am not worried being single. I know God is saving me for someone special.

I still believe in true Love. But if I'm meant to-be alone for the rest of my days as of this writing I would say it's OK....

First Day at the gym..

It's my first day at the gym today.

I am with "S" at the gym. She is so sweet to accompany me the whole time. She honestly felt uncomfortable there, but for the sake of friendship she comes with me.. hehe! See how lucky I am?

S likes taebo better than working out with equipment's. Their is also Taebo in there. I think she will transfer next month. As of me I enjoyed it a lot. Although it's so tiring but don't care. I think it works better in my part.

I have been to the gym in the past. I didn't take it seriously though. But this time I am persistent to have a healthy heart and mind. Other than that I also wanted to lose my belly a little or maybe a lot of it..Thinking of wearing a decent swim wear like I used to. hayzt! I miss swimming na talaga.

Yeah! I'm going to do some workout in the in the next few days. . . I might start this Saturday!

The idea all started when me S and R went to Q.C circle to-do some exercise. There is a place where you can dance for 2 hours with the amount of P20.00. It was fun. so I started asking S if their is a gym close to my place. She told me that there are many gym around the neighborhood. It made me excited.

Today I checked the place and yeah it's nice there. They have lots of equipment's and it seemed that most of the tools are new.

So yes! I will pursue that idea. I will turn it to be real in the next few days. . Yay! Excited lang..

overseas, just some thought..

Today I go out with my friend. We just go stroll around Manila to find job overseas. I honestly love to visit other country whether it will be for fun as a tourist or a contract worker. It doesn't matter really. Of course I do love my country. and perhaps I will die here in my home land. But you know as a human I also dream of exploring the world. Sight seeing. Looking around the wonders that God has created especially for us..

If I get a chance to marry a man that will love me against all odds. I would sure ask him to explore the world together(only if we can afford). But if I can't find him I still see myself wandering around, enjoying the sight that God has offered. I know for sure I will not be alone in this journey. I will be meeting people that has the same interest in me. My friends here shared the same idea like mine. But I know someday they will create their own families.

With all honesty I am not really in a hurry of finding a guy. Maybe it's good enough that I will focus about myself as of the moment. I will pamper my own self like a baby. My heart has been over used, and I feel guilty about that. It's time to take care of em' . .

As of writing.. my mood is that BIG SMILE below. . . We cannot tell what our tomorrow is. I pray that God will help me, to always if not always maybe most of the time help me feel Happiness and contentment in life.

How powerful LOVE is???

This post is inspired when I was wastching a T.V program about a "gay and a lesbian" who got married in church.I find it very entertaining since it's one of a very rare situation where both gay's(literally men-woman) fell in love with each other.See how powerful love is?

Everyone in this world deserves to be loved. Wether your man,woman,gay or a lesbian. Even dog's in the street needs someone's affection. Love is something that makes you feel accepted no matter how worst the situation is. No matter how tough the time is for you LOVE is always there comforting you and telling you that everything will be alright. TRUE love never quits.

I am a woman that strongly believes that there is a right person for each of us. Along the way we may stumble and fall into pieces, got hurt and perhaps may have scars due to that certain heart break. But isn't it true that falling in love is a wonderful thing?

I have my own fair share of stories about that. But it doesn't mean I will end my world just because someone broke my heart. I won't stop loving..

I know I deserve the BEST. and Someone deserves the BEST in me too..

Here's a famous bible quote that I include...

1 Corinthians 13

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror;then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

and I say....

I don't know what happened to-me. I really try to compose some words for my blog but it seemed like my powerful brain don't allow me this time. Let see how far this post can go.. he he!

I have so many things to say. too many experience to share. but there's always "but" since I don't know where to start writing. see? it still in the topic of being mum.. hmmm...

Well, just wanted to share that life is not as easy as 123. Everyday we have to keep living. Embracing positive and negative emotions. Sometimes we feel like it's OK, and sometimes we feels like there's a bunch of sh*ts. But, life for me is always a blessing.

I remember how God saved me from a car accident early this year. I think God did that for a purpose. I perhaps see the purpose now, but it's not that clear yet. I have a strong feeling this might be it. The reasons why HE put me in a very hard situation. He knows I am strong and I can handle it with a smile. And I'll be able to put a smile in someone else face too..

Burp Day!

A not-so perfect Day. But the power of friendship helps me get through the Day..

Pre-Birthday post..

In 2 weeks from now it will be my birthday again. I will be turning 29 by then. . With all those years that passed by, it seemed like life for me becomes a tough challenge day by day..

Learnings...

I've learnt that their is no permanent in this world except change...

I've learnt that we have to live our lives according to day by day basis...

I've learnt that in life no matter how deep we fall, their is still goodness along the way...

I've learnt TO LOVE MYSELF even more...

Some wishes..

Good health...

Love of friends and family...

Job..

Positive mind..

Healthy Heart...

To visit my family in Cebu...

Love life???? if it happens, it will.. And I hope this time, it will be with the right one!

Wants...

to eat strawberry cream fudge..

to buy shirt,jeans and slippers.. It's been forever already (shopping for myself)

to spend time with my friends..

I am Thankful, that God blessed me with good people around me. Thank you Lord for all the wonderful blessings in my life. I owe everything from you, and on that note I will continue to be your faithful servant... Amen!

Re-post...

I just read this note while browsinng, and I feel like it's worth for a re-post...

"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back."